Hi Everyone and Welcome!
I have been more than a few days and once again, I am switching gears.
We will get back to the 4th step, just not right now.
This week is a busy week and I hope to try to stay current in my writing. It is important for me to write even if it is not always the best writing. It is what helps keep me sane, it does help me process, and I hear it even helps others.
In the past week, I have mourned over a friend who died. I have been dealing with physical and my own emotional issues as well.
We all have been dealing with the pandemic and the ramifications of everything to do with it. I know you are sick of hearing about it, as well as myself. I do not want to have to deal with it another day, but that’s not reality.
It is the suggestion of everything for most of us. For others, it is not that simple. They are facing it head-on. God Bless each one of you.
I have learned a few things about myself this week. It is important to have the schedule and stick to it. It is the small stuff that trips me up. The reason being when it is small stuff, it adds up and becomes overwhelming.
For me personally, when I am overwhelmed I have a habit of just staying in bed, not answering the phone, and doing anything I can to avoid the pain. While this is not new to me; it is something I acknowledge. I will not let it remain this way, because after a while there are repercussions of avoiding.
Inevitably, it is all got to be faced and dealt with. I cannot do this by myself. It is imperative that I have help from others and a power greater than myself.
I must believe in hope. Without hope, I will perish. I die inside each time I start to give up and say no to those things that would aid in me being able to flourish.
It goes back to our thoughts, self-talk, and mindset. I am having to ask God to help me change each of these.
Throughout the day, I have found me yelling at myself to stop it! Then the next breath, Devil you are a liar and only God’s Word is true.
This has been my experience. Sometimes it is easier than other times to stay on top of this
It has been difficult as usual to stay in contact with people who are good for me as well. I must do it and start being consistent with to not be defeated.
The pain gets real without taking steps to take care of myself. The willingness to go forward means facing it all, feeling it all, and still take responsibility for taking care of myself, the best that I am able.
It means making those lists and checking them off as I do each thing.
I hope my actions in writing prove my willingness and consistency. This has been a big challenge I hope to change in.
Thanks for reading!
This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!
God Bless Y’all Everybody!