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Here We Go Again Another Round At The ER

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He Y’all I am up late tonight behind the keyboard once more.

My heart is heavy and have some concerns as I must get up in the morning and head to the emergency room at the hospital. Today I got a call late from the wound clinic that the Nurse Practitioner wants me to go to the emergency room to have my feet checked out. They are not evidently and or going in the right direction of healing.

I have several good things on my side though. I have a praying Mama and Grandma. I also have several friends praying and most people I miss terribly. But I have never felt so cared for by so many people. I have a good friend willing to take me to the hospital.

I promised my Mama I could go back to sleep, and I am exhausted even though I did sleep all evening. I had my friendly helper fry up some hamburger and all I had to do was put it together with cheese, chips, sour cream, and guacamole for some simple nachos.

However, I had to stop and ask her to finish it because I got weak all the sudden. I should have sat down to do it in hindsight. I got about a 1/4 of it down and I am taking bites of some more of it as I write this entry. But once I ate, I knew I had to lay down and I am blaming most of it on not sleeping well the night before.

I had overslept and the nurse said she had come by to change my dressings. I never heard or call or knock on the door /ring the bell. Thankfully I woke up before a great panic set in to call my friend who has a key to my apartment and the whole thing start with calling my mom. I called the nurse, and she came back by 1:30pm.

When she started unwrapping my legs and feet, I had pain. There is a calloused part starting to look like it could open into a wound. This is not a good thing as I just got off the IV antibiotics through the PICC Line I had in my arm through my rehab and all.

Also, the night before I started throwing up. I had chalked it up to some food not agreeing with me. However, I also know this could have been a sign and I just thought of it now. So, one more thing I must tell the doctors in the morning.

The blood tests they did which is routine was some highs and some lows and I never can figure it all out, but I was doing better when I was on my protein shakes for sure.

I am trying to get all of this out of my head so I can stop worrying.

When I finally did call my Mama, I admitted I was afraid about even going to the hospital and did not want to go, but we both know I must. She prayed for the fear to go, and I prayed for her to have supernatural rest and that her husband be healed of his ailments and that God will heal my Mama in ways that He knows she needs to be healed.

My living room/office is clean and mostly decluttered. I will not get to enjoy it so much tomorrow. It makes me sad we got it clean for me just to leave for the hospital. At least it will be clean when I come home.

I am leaving between 9:30 and 10:00 am to head to the hospital. Now to make a list for in the morning of things I want to take including a list of my medications and all.

I am going to try to take a short walk. I want to enjoy the midnight air. So maybe just on this short sidewalk in front of my apartment. I will have my phone with me.

I will get back to sleep and wake in the morning. Oh, also I need to call my therapist so he knows everything going on and maybe I will talk to him just shortly before this whole ball starts rolling tomorrow.

I have some tears and it is okay as I do have a lot to cry over and a lot to be grateful for both. I guess my prayer is that Jesus takes the wheel and bring me back whole somehow. This is a hard walk. I wish I could hug everyone. I am sure you think I am just being dramatic, but it is scary, and I love every one of you. God Bless you and keep you.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blogpost entry b Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all everybody!

Time Is Up! What Have I Done

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Hey Y’all!

It is good to be back behind the keyboard again. I am sorry it has been so long. My life has stayed turned upside down and I am still searching for answers and resolves in turning things around. I have no real answers right now, just a hope that I can keep on keeping on!

On August 28, 2021, I celebrated my 17th year of being clean and sober. But there is more that does still have to change. I feel so broken in ways to the point of just being in pieces waiting for God to show me how I go back together.

I have wanted to reinvent myself in so many ways. With some I feel they are telling me time is up! Do it or do not do it. With others they are just patiently waiting with God waiting for me to step forward to take the action needed to help myself.

I have had to isolate a lot for health reasons and a lot of bitter tears asking how, when, and why?

I cannot seem to shake loose everything that has happened since coming home from the rehab and moving. The moving happened within 48 hours of coming home from the rehab. I feel like I turned a corner and jumped on runaway train. All the while screaming I want things back and I want to let loose of all that is not good for me.

Some of my most cherished friends I miss most of all, even the ones that are walking with me. Have I lost them? That is what is screaming inside my head so loudly, yet in the silence. I cannot seem to find my way back to who I am.

Just as I am, without one plea,
But that Thy blood was shed for me,
And that Thou bid’st me come to Thee,
O Lamb of God, I come! I come!
Hymn Lyrics

The God of all in my understanding and as I may not understand Him is where I find refuge right now.

I still have good dreams on how to live my life out loud. even though the nightmares still come. I walk a little way and I fall. But I refuse to stay down maybe that’s why I can still see His mercy and grace upon my life.

I really do want change in my life.

Maybe now is the time to go back to the basics of reading and hearing the true words I need. The words that remind me of who I am.

There are some people ready to help if I will just ask. How do I let go of my will?

I cry out when I am alone for fear certain people are gone. But there they are just waiting.

I have a story to tell its just waiting for me to form the words. My words are like paint, and they will paint a picture when they are true. I am not sure which way to turn but I must take a step for anything just something to change.

I hope when it is all ready, I will be standing up right and my hand stretched to yours as we give and take and come away from each other changed from where we once were.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike over and out.

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

Changes Coming A Whole Brand New Ballgame

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Hello Everybody!

I am here with more reasons and mostly the same reasons why I seem to be missing in action a lot. My health has been on a decline as well as my emotional well-being and nervous system.

I really thought I could move ahead with out as many changes. That was my first mistake.

I have had a couple of falls and being stuck off the bed and on halfway kind of pinned and on box springs. I could not get me up. I was trapped by own weight, dead weight.

The muscle behind my knee has quit working right. It is the muscle that allows us to bend our knees and legs to get up almost without thinking about it when we are healthy.

I hate admitting this because there is nothing else, nor anyone else to put the blame on. I have allowed my unhealthy ways to trap me in.

I must dig out the tools and figure out how I can live peaceably but healthier in my eating and exercise. It includes getting enough water, rest, and actual sleep as well.

Even starting on a small scale of change is better than not trying at all.

I have my reasons for not wanting weight loss surgery. So, I have 6 months to convince the medical team I can make a goal and keep moving forward.

EMS has been here a total of two times; I do not want there to be a third time.

I still must decide what goals are attainable and reasonable for me, for this next month. I must write them down and track the steps to accomplish them.

I really was not prepared in thinking how messed up my body is even though people could yell it at me. Even though caring all I heard was the yelling or their passion.

I refuse to be defeated and it all hurts physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

Whatever I decide I am going to have to stick with it because change is hard and its going to take repetition of new things to make this change.

The hardest is feeling the shame inside feeling crippled by it just as much as the dis-eases that come with unhealthy living.

You think that by doing a few healthy things it can get better. I can tell you; it is not enough to do just a few things.

I want to change and do better. It will take lots of hard work on my part.

There are other changes that will have to take place too though I am not ready to confront those just yet.

The way I do figure it is if these changes can happen then its way better than the humiliation and self-degradation, I have been through by not being able to help myself.

I never felt so small than when I was communicating to my mom that I was scared and that I had to get my oxygen level up and be able to do the exercises.

But I felt great after prayer with her I was able to do both get my oxygen level up and get some exercises in.

I have a chance to change; I am going to take it with Gods help.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blogpost entry b Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y‘all Everybody!

Taking Action to Make Changes Happen

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Hi Everyone,

I really cannot say I have accomplished a lot in the way of moving forward to look for a new place to live. I also have done horrible staying in touch with people. But again, I will not give up. I can do better and vow to do so.

I did make a list with due dates for each task and a place to mark in my progress, until I have completed the list. I made such a list years ago to motivate myself to complete such tasks.

It already has motivated me to get rid of the piles of papers on my desk and put them in folders. One thing that was important for me was to get all my bills down to a zero balance. This has relieved a lot of stress and undue pressure on myself.

This last week I had a face-to-face therapy session. One of the great things about this session was to find and feel that spiritual connection again. It has stayed on my mind since last Friday.

It has been a long time to find the spiritual part under all the human brokenness in me. Its just junk that I have been carrying around. I do not always know how to let go or deal with it rationally.

It was as if God Himself, pushed all the junk aside and asked if I would meet him in the middle so I can be free. This getting ready to move is like the physical act of cleaning the junk out and taking responsibility for myself. I do want to be willing to let go of the crud and stop being afraid of everything.

When I feel halfway decent, it is like all the things are being put in place for me to keep busy and not be distracted. As I write this, I see how I finished one task completely. I have 11 more tasks on my list to complete by the end of the week.

The other thing I need to address is that I need to put in the work of showing care for all those in my tribe and doing my best to reply to people more promptly. This is especially true with those of you in my own tribe. I do value each and everyone of you who read what I have to say.

I guess all in all when we say we are ready to make a change we must take physical action. If we do not act, it makes it hard to show the seriousness in making the changes needed.

I guess as I reflect over my life right now, I see this as a moment I am choosing to want to make a change. In this moment I get to take the steps necessary to make this change.

Acting, gives me freedom to choose and not be forced into moving where I do not want to move. Real self-care begins when you take the forcefulness out of your life by doing the next right thing.

I am now really excited for this journey to continue.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out.

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

Sometime Alleluia, Sometimes Praise The Lord, Sometimes …

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Hi Everyone,

The title of this blog entry will be understood before the end.

I have done much grieving in the past year over friends and family dying. Covid has not taken them all two had cancer, one had heart complications, another is getting ready to leave this world with a clot in her lung.

I have done some grieving in the past two months over my own inabilities. A loss of freedom in ways I have had to think about how to get up and sit down especially when no one is around. How to make my way to the bathroom and kitchen is a big deal.

I deal with a lot of death dreams and they frighten me. Death makes me surrender to the fact I am mortal, and death will happen one day.

However, I can attest to finally having one death dream where I visited with my dad. He and I were picking and joking with one another. My Uncle was there, and he asked me about what he needed to do to take care of his legs as he sat on a couch. My dad and I on a staircase still joking around.

Oh, how I hugged my dad and did not want to let go. It has been almost16 years since he passed away. I miss him every day. But I had a peace after this dream that made me smile and I was happy for the good time in my dream with my dad.

I also realized my uncles’ question was for me; what was I going to do to care for my legs?

It is time to heal. I am a broken mess inside with more grief to spare.

What was I going to do? This means that it is not my time to go anytime soon. I needed to prepare for living.

Sunday morning, I was filled with physical pain and grief. Less than 24 hours ago I had learned great friend I once had, passed away. My heart hurt for him and many of us who loved him. Without my friend I would not have met so many friends along the way. I would never have jumped on an airplane. You do not get to just pull over to the side of the road in an airplane!

I attempted to make a good breakfast in pain and grief, and it did not pan out well literally! I ate it anyway and went back to bed.

I started worrying about if transportation was going to send me a car or van for my eye doctors appointment coming up this week. I eventually drifted off to sleep.

The Beginning of The Story!

I awoke at 5:30 pm completely famished. I heated up some more of the failed breakfast and realized I did not think about it. I just walked to the kitchen leaving my cane in the bedroom.

I am still in some pain and do not know if this will continue with me being able to walk from room to room with out having to plan my every move.

As I headed back to my bedroom with my portion of breakfast from this morning, I sat down on the bed and said, thank you God.

I had burst into tears while trying to take that first bite and admitted to God I was a mess. I thanked him over and over. Chuck Girard was singing on Alexa and something about no longer a sinner but one who when falls runs to God.

I need to back up here because oh in the wee hours I was watching The Resurrection of Gavin Stone on Netflix, it is a pg. movie. I was boohooing at the turn around in this actor playing an actor whose life was totally turned around.

Now back to Chuck Girard of course I finally see a text from my momma asking how I was. I decided to call her in the last 10 min window of time she might be able to answer. Instead, I am needing to leave a voicemail with my halfway crying and how good God was I had got up walked without thinking about it. I am doing good some pain but nothing like past several weeks or two months.

Oh, how I love my mama so much. I guess I told her I had her permission to write a part of her own story in mine, rather than asking for permission. Old habits die hard.

She said it will be interesting to read y’all. As Alexa played on the song came from my youth, my mama would sing lots of times. My mama would try to deal with strife among eight children by singing at times! She was not going to hear complaining or pay attention to “why do I have to wash the dishes this time, I did it last time.”

So, she would often be heard singing: “Sometimes Alleluia, Sometimes Praise the Lord, sometimes gently singing our hearts in one accord.” You did not want to force my Mama out of her singing otherwise she would start singing I am not listening, and that was the final warning.

Oh, and she and my dad would play Chuck Girard tapes in our van. However, tick my dad off and you might hear him yelling for a bit but here is how that played out a great deal of the time.

Again, my mama would start singing when you could hear a pin drop in that van. Often it led to my dad joining in with her and before you knew it the whole van was singing or humming.

It was the hard times in that van God used to touch one or all of us no matter what we were going through. I spent many silent tears in the back of that van praying neither of my parents would yell out a question to me.

I never wanted them to worry about me falling apart or having to explain what was really going on inside my head. It was only recently I heard my mama admit to me she worries. I am so blind.

She probably worried every time I went out the door, I just thought she never noticed. That is also my reasoning in trying to get away with a lot of things.

I loved coming home from school on the days she sang and baked. The candle would be lit in the entryway Everything was mopped and she had cookies or bread in the oven. There was peace in our house in the midst, as she had struggled some days to get three little ones down for a nap.

You see its in this time I can see how my relationship to God is as with my family and parents. I cry happy tears over this fact that they gave grace a lot. There are more happy times to remember.

I know my mama, friends, my tribe, and they are all really family, do not know what to do with me a lot of the time.

I am finally ready to take the new change in my journey. By the way as far as me walking better I do not know if it will last or if its going to keep getting better.

I am so loved, and I love you all so much. Today I want to hang on to the good stuff. I miss my friends and family that have passed away. I miss the good times. I miss those I have not been able to see or talk to in a while.

As of this moment my new word for the year is “Grace.” I am going to learn it, accept it, and give it!

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

One Of My Spiritual Experiences My Journey

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Good Afternoon Everyone,

I am starting this writing at 12:22 pm CDT. The snow and ice are still covering the ground temp is like 19°F here in South East Missouri.

I am staying indoors.

I am excited to share this blog post entry with you all. I pray you hear the message and not my words alone. I pray if you are like how I have been for years you too, can find what I have at least what I have for now.

I am not asking you to believe what I believe. I am not shoving anything down your throat. I am sharing my experience that happened today, and the things that led up to this experience.

The first part is that for a matter of a year or better I have been trying to tell you about my journey.

I gathered with a group of people around the tables where we all share something in common. We are people who ordinarily would not have mixed. Thankfully for some of us, we did not mix as we might have fed off each other’s maladies and be in cells next to each other in maximum security prison.

I believe there’s truth in the last line.

For one day at a time, I do not drink or use no matter what. You see I have a soul sickness that tells me I am worthless and deserve to drink if I let it continue in my head.

As I write this I get pretty choked up and feel all the warmth, love, and smiles, all the hugs, they are rolling down my cheeks now.

When I first approached any table, they told me I did not have to pick up again. Well, I did pick up time and time again. This went on for 20 years. I realized at the end I knew how to not pick up, but I did not know how to stay stopped.

For over 16 years one day at a time continuous, I have not picked up a drink or used. There are always other behaviors I am working on. In therapy and doing the things these other people around the tables do to not drink or use.

My journey is all about the continuing of my story. The journey includes me doing the footwork in what it takes to stay clean and sober.

I do have PTSD and I have chronic clinical depression. I say this so that you understand suicidal have been secondary and of course attempt and threats of suicide have been a part of my story.

I believe that God is involved in my journey and a part of my life. This is where my story and journey take a twist.

I grew up basically Christian, doing every church hop and denomination.

I always believed in God even just plainly on my own with several hiccups in my beliefs.

I finally admitted in therapy yesterday that I have trampled the blood of Christ so much that there was no grace left for me. There was grace for everyone else but me.

This morning as I woke up from a nap, I had pictures in my mind of different sins in my life and they were so vivid. It was scary and reminded me of death. I could see me dead.

Alexa was playing some hippie church songs from way back when.

The hippie version of I surrender all came on and I found myself talking to God and singing along and tears filled my eyes. This step as some of us call it I was working on and I said God I give it all to you.

I felt this weight lift it was like a big boulder holding me down. I give my rock God, my whole life, I give it all.

At the end it was like God said you have finally done step 6. I found grace again.

Its my spiritual experience. It happened. The fun part is as a teen I was part of a group known as Jews For Jesus for me personally I loved it was kind of a hippie thing to do.

I am a tree hugging hippie Jesus lover.

I feel real smiles again I am going to make it just for today. The tables are always at work it is our choice to participate.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

Closing Out January 2021 Climbing Out!

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Climbing out, I have gone through emotional and physical pain.

Today is January 31st, 2021 and it is the final day for this January.

The physical pain overtook me this week and made me feel so weak.

I am determined to overcome the emotional parts and in turn hopefully the physical pain will subside.

Climbing out for me means having to let go of anger once more, it’s a step-by-step process.

I have let sadness come in and live and let go of not taking responsibility for myself. I am ready to do better, pull myself up by my bootstraps, and keep going. I will have to look inside in order to heal, but not alone. I am not safe doing that alone I need help to do that.

The important people in my life say don’t isolate and reach out. Check on other people get out of your own head and listen to others. All of us are going through something.

I do want to find the part of me who prays for others needs rather than my own. I need to pray for others much more than I have been doing.

I will tell you many times Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday always. I want to live in giving thanks for all I have. The reason being at the end of the day, I am not alone. God still carries me through even when my behavior is not okay.

God is loving, merciful, generous, and forgiving of all. Because of God’s grace there’s no way to earn His love. I want to do better.

In the end of all this I have voiced in my writing, is my climbing out this time, means its time for me to step up and take responsibility for my well-being.

Its not about living up to any one person’s standards. It’s a spiritual journey where I do the best I can for twenty-four hours. I often forget that it is only for twenty-four hours.

I am here in my virtual boxcar arranging my pillows to finally relax with a cup of coffee. I acknowledge my right to live and thrive. It is my responsibility to reach my hand out to others who cry for help. That’s to anyone, anywhere.

I am limited in many ways however I can walk this walk, because talk is cheap. I am willing to move forward so I don’t die within myself.

I have taken my rest this weekend. It has been good.

  1. I am thankful for rest.
  2. I am thankful for the foresight to see anger and depression no longer serves me.
  3. I am thankful for God and that He has not dropped me.
  4. I am thankful for family and friends.
  5. I am thankful for my needs being met.
  6. I am thankful for a new day.
  7. I am thankful I get to be present for myself and others.
  8. I am thankful for the check-ins I will do in this very, twenty-four hours.
  9. I am grateful for my health.
  10. I am grateful to not oversee this world or other people.

So many times, I want to push my will ahead of everything. My prayer is simply if I won’t back down, I hope He wins!

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

You Must Follow Through No Checking Out

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Hi Everyone

I am back here attempting to write after failing to do any workshop or classes. Physically I could not do it. I spiraled down into deep depression my usual go-to.

However, I am climbing out again. The physical has been real.

I have checked out emotionally and have had several talks with myself about the need to do better and do different. The follow through is always needed.

I just talked with someone as they see me doing better, I said I must have a follow through. Without the follow through its just empty words and continuing to check out.

I do not want to be that person. The graveyards are full of people who had no follow through. They just checked out emotionally letting depression and circumstances drive them into the ground.

The doctors say, I will most likely be on antibiotics the rest of my life. I do not want to accept that. I am not willing to accept death either. At least not right now.

Today is one of my best days. I got enough sleep. I feel alert and know what is going on around me instead of feeling dazed and depressed.

You see you get to appoint of thinking you are accepting everything when you are checking out instead and continue your journey. It is a hard way to live that way You get blind-sighted by everything.

Your family and friends wonder where you are, where you have gone to now. Some even say they have worried and prayed so much hoping you were not just alone, laying in your apartment dead. It is not fair to them.

You still talk to your therapist, thank God! He asks how he can help. You explode with some expletives while saying, if you knew that you would not be there. That is not true.

You are there because you realize your hope candle is about to burn out. You are there because to the rest of the world you have checked out. You are there because you do not want to die. You are there because you finally admit you want to be held and told it is all going to be okay.

Maybe not everything will be okay, but you will get through it if only you follow through.

Writing this is part of my follow-through. I owe so many apologies and one to myself after everyone else. Because part of my apology is doing the follow through.

Even doing the follow-through and living life to the fullest does not prevent death at some point. But no one is dying here in this place today.

This time of year, I am ready to be thankful and have written thankfulness in many ways, in the past. But today, I am grateful most of all for friends and family who have not checked out on me.

Let me preface what I am about to say I am not usually political. What I have to say is partially political but most to do with the heart and spiritual.

I am scared for this world. I fear losing all freedom. It has so much to do with checking out and becoming door mats. I am not asking anyone to agree with me or speak against anyone.

I am telling you what I fear most. Make no mistake it is a reality!

I am grateful for today, being able to write, and just be real.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

Remembering We Are Enough To Be Loved

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Hi Everyone,

Many days it is so easy to undo the positive by forgetting who we are.

We are enough. We have a God who loves us and blesses us each day with life. Each breath we take is a gift. All of it is holy. I did not always believe so and some days I still struggle with believing.

In some situations, I will be shaking my head yes outwardly when someone is trying to affirm me in that I am enough to be loved and running far away on the inside.

But I am growing each day and think I will get to more solid ground with it as I press forward. I always believe if you are going to put something out here, then you must also be willing to be honest where you are with it any given day.

Do not get me wrong I do believe about the touching of souls and core of ourselves being spiritual. What is challenging is believing it when the tests come up.

Some days you do feel like you are whistling in the dark. This does not take away my experiences and it does not mean I lied about true connections. After all, it is just a feeling and we go through many feelings.

Feelings lie sometimes. We must accept this basic truth or else we will be filled doom and gloom most of our lives. I do not want to live my life in doom and gloom. Much of my life was already there before my parents and true family.

The after was living my life in addiction and self-hate. Each day is a battle for love to win. Some days are also easier than others.

What I have established so far is that I need God. The God who created me from dust and breathed life into me. That leads to me needing the breath of life.

There are real forces ready to snuff that breath of life out of me if I allow it. My addiction and drinking proved that. I also need truth with out truth I cannot acknowledge what is real.

Without reality I cannot love or be loved. Otherwise it is all empty words and no connection. Ah, but we have already established there is a connection and it is real. We do not get to cop out, as we often will try if we are running the show.

Today I want to establish my grounding believing all that is true. It can be summed up into this one nugget I was given this morning.  In Him we live and move and have our being. This is part of Acts 17 which is in a context, where Paul is advising how to seek after God.

That word stands on its own. We het to live and move and have our being. If we can remind each other of who we are love wins again.

It is in this thought of mind to foster hope in each other and to have grounded connections that the truth sets us free.

Change is coming and it is real.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blogpost entry by Boxcar Mike   over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

How Will I Work A Life Plan?

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Hi Everyone,

I took part of the day listening to podcasts, sermons and reading blog entries of others and doing my own research.

What I am writing today is not fair to even say that I have a plan to plan out my life.

What was interesting was to see how everything flowed together in some fashion.

I started reading a blog entry that talked about a life plan. It is most important to have a life plan to be successful. We all want to have a favorable memory left behind when our lives end here on earth.

I was really turned off by the blogger, mainly because he had his course email sign up not once but twice on the front of the blog, which made me clear them twice. This was before I could even read the content he was providing.

I like the idea of living life on purpose.

You can live your life on purpose. It begins by creating a “Life Plan.” This won’t insulate you from life’s many adversities and unexpected twists and turns, but it will help you become an active participant in your life, intentionally shaping your own future. Michael Hyatt

  1. 1. God
  2. Self
  3. Health
  4. Growth
  5. Rest
  6. Family
  7. Friends
  8. Writing
  9. Finances
  10. What kind of ministry or help I could be?

 The above are items to consider in my life plan.

The thing is, I am not so positive all the time. On any given day Id do my best to talk myself or anyone out of doing a life plan. I sure did not get negative overnight and I am not going to be Mary Poppins either.

That is why I think the second sermon I listened to on living out your faith was so important and interestingly flowed in today.

It was my pastor friend I listened to and I miss him a lot.

It reminded me of a few things in fact:

I do not want to be foolish and silly thinking I can do this life without God.

  1. I need to be able to ask God and others questions I have.
  2. Everyone needs a team of people not just one or two.

We cannot allow ourselves to get so bogged down in planning our life either. We do Have to live life and as most of my friends say, we insist on enjoying life.

In the coming days, I hope to have more to write on this subject.

10 Things I am Thankful for:

  1. I am thankful for a breath of fresh air.
  2. I am thankful for wisdom.
  3. I am thankful for a loving God as I always say even when I can be most unlovable.
  4. I am thankful for the strength to get through today.
  5. I am thankful for good gifts from God and that I may take what he gives me and grow.
  6. I am thankful for supportive friends and family.
  7. I am thankful for my Pastor Friend this one really brings tears of joy.
  8. I am thankful for the chance to live out faith.
  9. I am thankful we can be silly even as tension rises.
  10. I am thankful for anyone reading.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out.

God Bless Y’all Everybody!