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Life On This Earth Is Temporary

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Walthers Park

Hey, Y’all!

I am here again beginning the second week of my recovery of my post-surgery.

Today is a busy day starting with an early phone call and making breakfast. I am taking my medicine and getting ready for my ride for a lung cancer screening and a trip to the wound clinic for a dressing change.

As of Friday, I have been tracking my vital signs and taking my blood sugar test daily. It is all part of me taking care of myself.

I am dealing with feelings and emotions. I am looking at how my behavior has been and what it is I am looking for and want so that I might reach some goals to make my life better.

I am not always proud of how I behave but I am improving with time.

What do I want my life to look like?

I want to be successful and find a way to be prosperous, and simple. I want to be an example for others. I want to show others and prove to myself I can do anything I set my mind to and to live positively and mindfully that will allow me to be free and not hang on to the guilt of past mistakes.

What will help simplify my life?

Having an organized routine and making the changes possible to follow through. So often we allow people and things to bombard our lives when we are trying to set a routine.

We must be selfish when it comes to our time and spend it wisely because there are only 24 hours in a day and how we spend those 24 hours is completely up to us. We must take responsibility for our decisions because we have a limited number of twenty-four hours allotted to us.

Once we have this perspective it makes it easier to know what we are willing to spend our time on much like having a budget with a bank account.

Our bank account may look limitless but will run dry if we do not invest money and put more in our bank account.

The same is true with our time. We need rest. We must rest otherwise we become depleted of energy and life.

What is acceptable and reasonable?

Taking care of the responsibilities that are mine and which will help further my self-improvement. To have my understanding of God expanded and to understand that God loves me and that I can be loving and accept myself too.

I can take time to answer questions I do not need to respond to immediately just because it is demanded by others.

To have a positive outlook and change things up. To be willing to try new things as the occasion may arise.

To follow a daily routine and realize changes may come that may be pertinent.

What is unreasonable and unacceptable?

Guilt trips from others to try to manipulate my decision process are not okay.

To be irresponsible with time and resources have unnecessary consequences I cannot afford. If I can look at each activity throughout the day and realize the price tag each item has, I would be all the wiser.

What are my accomplishments?

I have completed a GED and obtained my GED in 2011

I have overcome Osteomyelitis through surgery and have all my limbs.

I have made blog entries off and on for years and working my way to writing full-time and getting better with time.

I have made dietary changes and have had to make changes based on finances.

I am initiative-taking in my health care and doing things to help enhance my health. I still have room to grow in this area.

I am taking responsibility for my actions.

What is it in my life that needs improvement?

My writing needs improvement constantly and to be more consistent with my blog.

My daily diet needs improvement. I need more exercise.

I need to call out others when they are responsible for the care of my physical health and neglect those needs fearlessly.

I need to not be a wimp and realize I have rights and stand up for myself in the right ways.

To be more consistent in my routine.

What does success look like for me?

Making money doing what I love and helping others.

To be a rock star at writing and turning my life around.

To be an encourager and full of faith.

To assert me and know my values and treat others with the respect they deserve.

The things I am thankful for:

I am thankful for this second week of recovery and for being willing to be well and grow.

I am thankful for everyone still praying and checking in on me.

I am thankful for the ability to be home, drink my coffee make my own meals and write.

I am thankful for a clean home and a bed and all the basic things.

I am thankful for prayer and meditation and a Loving God as He may express Himself in my life.

Thanks for reading!

 This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all, Everybody!

Thankfulness For The Tools In My Toolbox

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Farmington, Missouri

Hey, Y’all!

I know it has been a few days. It has been hard to keep on top of my game. However, I have managed to make it through each day regardless.

  1. I am thankful for having gratitude as one of my tools
  2. I am thankful for the ability to take inventory of my behavior and motives.
  3. I am thankful for being able to follow directions and take suggestions.
  4. I am thankful for knowing how to pause when necessary.
  5. I am thankful for the truth and to know when I am lying to myself.
  6. I am thankful there are muscles to stretch. Taking the time to stretch those muscles before just using them is advisable.
  7. I am thankful for outside resources and for being able to express my needs.
  8. I am thankful for the people in my life who hear me practice before I find myself in a situation.
  9. I am thankful I can call myself out and admit I am wrong.

Today, it is about finding the answers and keeping my side of the street clear. There is always room for improvement. I do not always make the right choices. I am not perfect. I just hope to do better than the day before.

I watch things happen and sometimes they seem to happen in slow motion. However, as I am ready to scream no, it is often too late.

I do not have to participate in the insanity. I can make better choices. Yet here I am.

To not make a choice is leaving myself open to the insanity of this life.

I have more self-respect than that. I want more for myself than just allowing things to happen to me. I want to enjoy life and be free.

There is something about minding my own business and doing my best to lead a quiet life.

This is not to say I do not get excited about life and want to live life out loud.

It is those quiet moments of a pause with coffee, prayer, and thought given to the day ahead, where I will find the most peace.

It is an important part of my day to strengthen me, for the tasks ahead.

My actions for the day:

I will choose joy.

I will choose happiness.

I will be in pursuit of peace as far as it depends on me, that together we can make it through this day.

I am responsible for my choices. I am responsible when anyone reaches for help so that I can at least point them in the direction of help.

Most times, most people just need their thoughts and fears heard. It is in listening that I can provide the most comfort. What most people need is someone to listen. We all need someone to listen.

It is the encouragement found in pausing, reflecting, sharing, and engaging with one another, that brings about the courage to keep pressing on. We keep putting one foot in front of the other.

We just do the best we can, and in doing the next right thing, we can sleep at night.

Thanks for reading!

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God Bless Y’all, Everybody!

I am Starting With Thankfulness With Another Self-Talk

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The Bluffs 2016

Hey, Y’all!

I am here and ready to share my thankfulness and another conversation in my head.

  1. I am thankful for early morning calls.
  2. I am thankful for the moments of silence and prayer with my coffee.
  3. I am thankful for the challenges to help me see when things can go right. Going right does not mean it always goes my way. Going right means it is good and often it is way better than my plans.
  4. I am thankful when I feel like crap, I can choose to make it better by choosing to be more positive. It takes just doing one thing at a time and remembering to encourage others!
  5. I am thankful my alone time is more solitude and a chance to claim sanity.
  6. I am thankful I am not the same person as six months ago.
  7. I am thankful for not having to wrestle with my honesty and sanity like I once did.

Today, I can see more choices set before me. I am thankful I get to participate in my own life instead of waiting for things to happen. There are things and people that are important to me. I am important to me today.

I can care for those close to me and listen to others. I pass on to others what I have. I get up when I fall. I know when to ask for help more so than I used to. I can follow directions. Sometimes in life, we must back and reread the directions.

I am thankful for the people in my life not giving up on me.

I am thankful for my recovery and spirituality. When a day comes along and not always feeling it, I can take a longer pause, say a prayer, and change my view.

You are going to do better because you want better. You are better.

You finally dropped the rock to grab the life preserver. You are well into the continuous journey of making wrongs right. You are having regular conscious contact with God seeking through meditation. You are going through and admitting when you are wrong more quickly and seeking to make things right where wrong has taken place.

You pass on your experience, strength, and hope and do your best to not claim anything you do not have. You have more clarity as the journey contuses.

You have hope today that you have never had before. It is never just enough because we learn until our last breath. We learn as we change. We change as we take necessary action.

The strength and bonds you have with people are much stronger. You hold life closer and try to not take for granted the time we have left on this earth.

Failure is never final if we get up. Our past does not have to dictate the future.

Hold on to thankfulness, hope, peace, and love. One more day of packing into the stream of life and not just taking from it.

This is how we live.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all, Everybody!

A Conversation With Myself Take Good Care

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I Remember

Hey, Y’all!

I have stayed too busy for some of my self-care. By noon each day, I am exhausted. It is just going to take what it takes to be up on this routine that starts at 430am.

I am trying something just a tad different by sharing the actual conversation in my head I am having with myself. For some of you, it may sound out there, and some people may be scared.

I just want time with you, life is too short to not have time to reflect, dream, laugh, cry, and see the wonders of all the earth around me like when I was a child. This is how I learned to talk to
God.

I think of you often and wonder what you will do next. You hold your friends and family close to your heart. Will you hold you, that close? I used to dream of you becoming famous. Now, I realize all I want is you. It sounds narcissistic. I do not mean it that way.

Will you remember to love you? Even when you make mistakes it is okay to love you.

I want a shed that allows me to look out a window and see the sunshine and all the different weather conditions. I also want a safe walkway that stays covered and makes the fierce winds go around the structure.

A fireplace and a day bed would be in this shed along with a kitchenette so I could stay a couple of days just to myself. It must have a bathroom and shower as well. To have internet in this shed would be pointless except, I am nosey enough to get my phone to click in to see what is going on with all the people. I would click out before I had to respond to anyone.

I think God and an Angel or two would come to visit during my naps. A lot of this is just a dream, but it is better than fame or fortune. I would have candles everywhere and a bear skin rug next to the fireplace. The place would smell like Honeysuckle and rose of Sharon. You could smell the vanilla from baking, The same way in my mom’s house where the sense of peace is. My writing would continue until my last breath upon this earth.

A few might know of my secret shed. The dark curtains for night and sheers for the day, as sunlight glistens on the flower vases.

I now must work hard to get through this time to take loving care of myself.

Do you know you are going to be okay? You are. You are willing to do what it takes to make your goals, even as they are late. Timing has not always been your best suit but God’s Timing works wonders.

You get to do better with your future as you lay to rest the past and accept what is now. It is the new memories you get to make. Let go of the mistakes and regrets. Today is your best bet. Let us move forward now.

Take Good Care of Yourself!

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

Coffee Time On A Way Too Early Saturday

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Heading Out To Bismarck Lake 2018

Hey, Y’all!

I am still waking up even if I have been up since 5:30 am.

Norman Greenbaum, Red Bone, The Eagles, and me. I love my music.

I have been thinking about changes and what it all means since last evening. You can feel resistance from those around you when you are in the middle of making changes or doing what you need to for self-care.

You must keep moving and keep changing regardless. Someone wise says you wish those people well, pray, and hope the best for them. God love them.

What I do love is the ones from your tribe show up. They remind you that you are on the right path. My friend showed up with a turkey we are going to thaw that baby out and cook it this next week. I am looking forward to that because I am going to bake the turkey with a keto stuffing recipe.

I went searching for a turkey recipe a couple of months ago and did come across it. I do want to be healthier. I am not always willing to put in the work for it, but somehow there is always a way out.

I do not have to entertain anyone else’s insanity today. My excuses for my choices are more than enough to deal with on most days. I must answer for me and me alone.

How we answer for ourselves comes in all forms. There are a lot of days my door is open too much. Believe me, Friday comes, and I want that door closed. I want to keep out as much nonsense as possible.

It looks like a lot of loneliness but not so much anymore. It is freedom. I have learned that if you stop stuff at your door then you only contend with what is inside of you. That is more than enough for me to contend with most days.

Have I mentioned the month is slipping by? This means the year is slipping by as well. I am not even close to all that I had hoped to accomplish this summer. Maybe surviving and stopping the insanity in part is what I was meant to accomplish. There is always more to do. There is always more revealed.

I am stronger emotionally, spiritually, and physically. A week ago, I thought it was about explaining that to others. This week I realize it is more about explaining that to myself. The fact is I still need others.

I cannot do this alone, but there are more things I can do without supervision.

I of course need guidance overall. To me, it is a mixture of many different things. Life is not at all the black and white solid force of nature. Life has a lot of grey areas. There are absolutes and I am still finding my way through both of those.

I am not the person to tell you, you are wrong. Your way may work for you. That does not mean your way works for me, nor my way works for you.

Saturday and Sunday both slipped by, so I am posting now on Monday.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

Learning To Be Gentler Towards Myself And Others

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Irondale 2019

Hey, Y’all!

I am doing well on this second day of my reset again. I am in the middle of changing things up and trying to be easy with myself but consistent. I have a determined mind to not allow myself to go backward one day at a time and find the willingness to keep writing.

Monday was Independence Day. I stayed in bed sick all day and all evening.

I do not want to wake up every day ready to scream because things are not going my way or place judgments on people when I have no idea what the full story is for them. In some respects, my writing is to try and deter some people from judging me when it is my judgment against me.

I love what happened to me this morning as I was cooking breakfast and making my coffee. I was praying as well. I usually do a fast prayer and say amen, before I get my sip of coffee and make my daily morning call to a trusted and sweet friend.

My prayer went into thanking God for the things I was grateful for and asking for help throughout the day. I do not want to be that angry person or feel the need for vile language. I do not want to feel like I am refraining all the time either. That is not how I am supposed to be.

When I am out of control of my emotions and words, it is not just slipping. It is an all-out war and here is the thing, in the end, it is a war with self. It is not about people just being stupid. Although, I often say it is and that you cannot cure stupidity.

It is taking those moments that can be stressful remembering to practice patience. People are often patient with me even when I am not showing any sign of grace towards anything or any situation. Again, I am looking at the war with myself.

I have zero tolerance and grace when I consider my actions stupid or thoughtless. I scream and curse at myself. Therefore, in the past, that has been my cop-out if people understood how hard I was on myself they would I was going light on them in comparison. That is still not good for others or me. It is not okay to treat others or myself like garbage.

In Boxcar Mike’s Motivational Board -The very first card says, my friends and I do not hurt each other or ourselves. I try to live by that motivational board but, I fail too. What I learned today in being quieter within and listening to the small voice is that I do not have to rage.

I did a bit of initiative-taking things that require patience, like getting medications set up, making an eye doctor appointment, updating the pharmacy with my insurance, and calling my doctor for refills on the medications I take.

I got through it all without being impatient or raising my voice. It has been a good day. We just need to manage things at a slower pace and steady. Taking the time to realize we can be patient and handle others with genuine care when we do the same for ourselves.

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It Has All Been Said And Done Before

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Desoto, Missouri 2016

Hey Y’all,

I have gotten so far behind after losing any routine I had built up. I am just always happy to reconnect. Once I start doing the things that help me do the things I need to, I start becoming more content. The bottom line is if you want the prizes, you must do the work necessary for those prizes.

What are the prizes?

The prizes are in my own life more weight loss, self-betterment, more consistency in life, more energy, a spiritual life that is positive, and a longer fuse. Happiness is the goal! Just even mere contentment with life and in life. It is not hard to do. The key is to stay current and connected.

My priceless moment at the end of a workday is pushing people out my door, at least in my mind!

Some of you might say. “You’re on disability you do not work!” Let me beg to differ. I am on call 8 am-4 pm daily Mon- Friday, and on some weekends! I have professionals in my home Monday through Friday and on some weekends! If I get people out early, it is all the better. However, some days, I am not done until 5:30 pm.

If I could truly do anything I want in these hours, it would not be having people in my home or doing things to fit into others’ plans. So please do not tell me how easy I have it! I admit it is not all manual labor and my work allows me to take shower on the clock.

Heck, there is a benefit for me! I do enjoy my coffee. But it is not watching movies all day. Now in most cases, no one can write me up for having a difficult day. However, some have tried to write me up! It is my pleasant disposition that helps keep some people at bay.

If only they would stay, there. I am half kidding. Naps would be a wonderful thing! I wish I could encourage and even insist on some people taking them. It would stop so much useless information from going inside my head! I could go on about this! No, I really could!

Now my work is about getting me better and in a place of healing physically, emotionally, and spiritually. It is taking back the responsibility of caring for myself with some help and a watchful eye.

I have so much more progress to make but I have come a long way in the last year.

Yet, I have back-slid enough to pick up certain pieces and make them work for me. Now, it is back to being engaged and participating in my own life and the recovery of my emotional and physical well-being. Here I am resetting the routine. Once more, doing it again in hopes of it taking this time.

Honesty with God, myself, and others.

Open-mindedness to hear other experiences and what works for them.

Willingness to follow through and not give up.

This is the answer, but it is the action that takes you through a process of twists and turns and constantly changing.

I have complained that my fuse has gotten shorter and that I just will not put up with nonsense. Here is how this goes. No one is going to fix that for me. No one can change me or you, we only have ourselves and God to do that in my belief system.

So, we take the stuff we learn, and we go to work. Just like scrolling on social media, we must ignore the stupid stuff that people try to inflict on our brains and find something positive to say or think about.

We make our world safe sometimes by removing ourselves from the situation and moving on to something else. It is best to function as if we have not heard it at all and ignore it. It is easier said than done. As it is with most simple ways, this is the case

In a conversation, I was having a week or so ago with my mama, she is one of the smartest people I know. We agreed we must pick our battles. Some battles are just not worth it. You must move on.

It was a few days later, that I was practicing the mantra I can do anything for twenty-four hours. I got my test within a couple of hours realizing I cannot reason with a person who lacks reasoning. Again, moved on.

It is refusing to be sucked in by the nonsense.

I get to share this with you as part of my journey.

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My Gratitude Is A Plan Of Action

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Jeremiah 29:11 ESV

11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Hey, Y’all!

It’s good to be back writing once more. I have been big on gratitude for some time. Perhaps even before I knew just how useful this tool can be and can save me from a day being ruined.

Monday was such a day I had the opportunity to use this valuable tool to turn my day around.

I was feeling, just not with it, and thought maybe I would coast through the day feeling armed with a new form of knowing more about myself during this process of resetting my life.

Somewhere between 11:00 am and 1:00 pm, I was feeling that Monday day coming on feeling and being a little bit hangry. Hungry, angry, and a man of little patience. The self-pity even started to slip in.

The next thing I started contemplating was the fact of me doing this reset. While it may have started as a reset with Mel Robbins, I realized this was my reset. I could start my day over and I started making a gratitude list.

I next realized, “Hey this is the first time I ever thought on my own to do a gratitude list in response to my feelings. Something is working here!”

I have decided to do a daily gratitude list of 10 things each day. In this entry, I am using yesterday’s list as the guide in which I share the changes in why I am grateful for each item.

To me, it is just amazing how you may know useful tools and how one day the light bulb goes on where those tools become more effective.

My list starts in the following way:

  • I am grateful for the fact that I am alive.

This means I have a chance to grow and break the cycles I have remained in and that no longer serve me.

  • I am grateful I can change my attitude.

I do not have to be miserable and make others miserable. I get the opportunity to change my responses to negative things and the thoughts running through my brain.

  • I am grateful I can change my actions.

For a long time, I did not know I have a choice to choose not to respond. I always have that option. In a lot of cases, it is the best choice I can make.

  • I am grateful for a program that helps me get it together,

I do not have to stay stuck. I can make up my mind to follow suggestions that have worked for others. There is strength in numbers and a lot of times just listening to others’ experiences helps me way more than trying some little trick. Though doing something I have never done before works as well, in most cases.

  • I am grateful for my spirituality.

Today I believe God is real and has my best interest in mind. I believe God has fought hard for me in the insane life I have led. He loves me unconditionally. I believe God has a plan for me and gave His Son for me. I am not here to shove it down your throat. It is a fact in my life and what I believe.  

I believe God has used and continues to place people, places, and circumstances in my life for different reasons. All of it is shaping who I am today.

  • I am grateful I do not have to ask family and friends to bail me out of every jam today.

There have been so many times in my life of being irresponsible and keeping on making the same poor choices that left me in the jams of insanity. The many times of having to lose everything start over. I hope to never have to repeat those lessons and pray I stay on the journey I am traveling.

  • I am grateful my life has turned around.

Almost a year ago now I realized I had turned a corner in my life where I reached the physical age of poor decisions and living just plain wrong had a cause and effect upon my life. My body’s check engine light came on and it was no fun. I have made changes and hope to make even more.

  • I am grateful that the simple small actions can make my day a success.

The simple small steps are making a gratitude list. It is getting up as soon as possible and choosing to move forward with my day. Taking the time for self-care. Filling my medicine box, being my advocate, Praying first thing, and getting that cup of coffee before I talk to anyone. Taking a pause, I do not always remember this and usually regret it later.  

  •  I am grateful for the choice to stop the insanity.

Whether it comes through the phone or trying to come in through my front door. I have the choice to refuse it today. To be honest, mostly insanity tries to come into my thoughts and that is where the rubber meets the road. Stopping the first thought can be winning the battle.

  • I am grateful for a place to call home.

I have food in the cabinets and fridge, I have a place to sleep and it is safe to be here. I get to be here today.

I hope this has been uplifting and has helped you on your journey.

Thanks for reading!

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Spring Reset With Mel Robbins And Catching Up Currently

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“You can’t control how you feel. But you can always choose how you act.” — Mel Robbins

Hey, Y’all!

I am at the last minute getting information out about a very important opportunity that could change your life.

The other evening I was going through my Facebook feed when I came across Mel Robbins offering a free Spring Reset 3- Part training. Mel Robbins is a motivational speaker. I jumped on the chance for this opportunity and hope that many others take this FREE Opportunity as well. Please Click The Link  https://courses.melrobbins.com/reset you will not be disappointed.

I have followed the instructions thus far and already have the training 1 video waiting for me to watch and work through in my email.

I have shared before and continue to share that a year ago when I was in the hospital and rehabilitation Nursing Home, I would not remain the same when I returned home.

I was released the Weekend of July 4th, 2021. My Independence Day personally, was July 4th, 2021. When friends did what they could but especially one friend who asked someone to help me move to a street-level apartment.

My life has not been the same since coming home that day. I have not, nor has anyone else found it necessary to call an ambulance for myself since the Spring of 2021. I want to continue my journey of change.

I am down to two wounds on my left extremity on either side of my ankle. A year and a half ago we were looking at 11-15 wounds total and maybe even more than that. I have lost a total of 75 pounds in the last year and I am hoping to press on beyond that.

I have made my apartment home and refer to it as my house. I feel like I am a sponge taking in everything I can learn, hoping to implement more changes in my life. I have plenty of room for improvement and want more than anything to keep growing and changing.

Emotionally and spiritually there has been an improvement in not having to take other people’s temperatures to see if I am okay.

I am closer to God than I have been in almost the whole seven years I have moved to South East Missouri. Again I have much room for improvement. I am finding I am for once, reasonably happy and content in my surroundings.

I am finding joy in my life. I have accused others of stealing my joy and maybe one or two monsters that were once in my life did steal my joy. But I realize today, I mostly traded my joy for fear, anger, resentment, hatred, self-loathing, and self-pity, Do you get it? I became my monster.

I am working to rid myself of all the monsters today.

I am learning to surrender, pray, and meditate. I have hope and a future.

I get the choice to listen to others and realize they help me more as I listen.

I do not have to defend myself today in stories others may hear about me or see. I have both been a good friend and a jerk. Both are true.

My life is not even close to what it once was and I am pushing forward.

Let’s Do this Spring Reset With Mel Robbins

Thanks for reading!

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God Bless Y’all Everybody!

This World Is Too Much With Us

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A photo I took out by Bismarck Lake Bismarck, MO

Hey Y’all,

I am back. I am recovering from being sick and it has been challenging to say the least. I did enjoy my birthday, as it was one of the best!

The topic at hand grabbed my heart in the past week or so. I was watching a cooking show and saw someone had a devotion book with the title on the page that read: “This World Is Too Much With Us.”

When I saw the title, I instantly imagined God saying that out in the open as a statement.

I see God as the Ultimate Parent in my world. I see God as The Creator. I see God as love and the Spiritual Being or Divine One.

God in my eyes had rules and expectations, but most of all God had a plan. That plan included us. My views keep changing but the constant is that God loves me accepts me, created me, sees me as enough, and provides for me. He always provides a way out if I look for it. I find myself when going through a difficult time, that Life was never meant to be this hard! There has to be an easier way!

I know when I begin a new adventure I will spend my energy foolishly, thinking if I just start full force with all I have I will plow through with no problem. But it does become a problem because I get worn out realizing I must start at the beginning once more.

It seems when we are the most worn is when we are needed most or that we need to be needed. We want to fulfill some impossible tasks. Because we want to help in some way, be a part of, and build a bridge to make it easier for others as well as ourselves.

We keep hoping for an easier softer way. The reality is if we just do what is in front of us to do is the easier way. The other way just becomes a way of using and being used up. It is like using some unearned credit to make it for what we think might be an easy ride up the mountain. What I fail to realize is that unearned credit is going to be time to be paid back plus interest. This is what living life on credit or a bartering system is like. Because in the very beginning we start using scales that are not balanced, It is just like gambling. Only we do it with our very lives, The house always what? The house always wins! We lose more than what we were supposed to gain.

The ways of this world just do not work. In the faint distance, I can hear my mom and dad calling after me. “We never meant that for you!” In the same way, I hear God today saying: “It was supposed to be easier, did you not hear my instructions? Did you not listen? I never meant that harm to you. That was not my plan for you!”

This world will use you up, chew you up, and spit you out. We get used up trying to find an easier, softer way.

Being on this journey means doing what is in front of me. Letting go of my expectations of what I think the instructions mean and following the instructions makes it easier. I see more beauty in life when I find my gratitude.

Safety comes when I just do my part and it becomes an easier mountain climb just one foot in front of the other. God has been here the whole time. This World is too much with us.

In the end, this is how we walk each other home. My Mama is calling for supper time … I just heard her…”Michael, Michael, Its’ time to come home!” Be there in a minute Ma!

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all!