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Relaxing After An Insane Spring Cleaning Purge

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Hey, Y’all!

It is great to be writing to you all again. What I write is mostly about myself. I invite you along for the ride in hopes my experience may be of help in either doing or refraining from doing. I do not have a degree in any subject. All I have is my experience, strength, and hope.

I have stayed so busy purging and spring cleaning and doing what I could to pass an inspection of my place. I was living in fear of failing because of my standards and projecting them onto the task at hand. I passed the inspection with flying colors.

At the end of the day, I just crawled up in a ball on my bed and cried. I was busy living in fear over everything my health, my sanctuary, the rules where I live, and much more. I learned a lot about myself, and I am still learning more. There is so much more to me than my shell, thoughts, and feelings.

My spirit inside is trying to emerge while I take on battles. A lot of the battles I am fighting are of my own making. It is important to take responsibility for myself today. It is a never-ending battle when you believe and refuse to lay the battle down. It is because of allowing dark thoughts to come in and not taking those thoughts down instead.

You can fool yourself into thinking you are doing the work to care for yourself while you are just going through the motions. There is a tug-of-war that goes on when you are determined to get real. Every spear of darkness comes at you when you are ready for a breakthrough. It becomes a battlefield of the mind. I was foolish to let the thoughts come at me.

I realized the two strongest points for darkness to come at me are before I sleep and when I am still waking up for the day. As I cried the night after winning the passing inspection, I went to sleep off and on as I listened to a new podcast. I got good rest, but I needed more rest and still need more rest.

I am just now writing once more, as I struggle to finish this with the midnight oil on Friday at 11:30 pm.

The two points where I feel bombarded in my thoughts are when I am preparing for sleep and waking up for the day. I will tell you the reason I cried because it was a hard fight to finish the project cleaning and being ready for the inspection. I was fighting myself more than anyone because of the thoughts and wanting it to be perfect.

Now how is it to be ready for the arrows of darkness that come into my thoughts? It is the constant self-inventory making sure my side of the street is clean. Prayer and meditation. It is trying to stay in a place of gratitude and say the prayer of God help me! When negative emotions come in this prayer works when I mean it!

I am ready to move past my craziness of wanting perfection and relax some more.

I feel as though more breakthroughs are brewing. This is not just a one-time lesson or the only lesson. There is more coming soon.

Matthew 11:28-30 ESV

28 pCome to qme, all who labor and are rheavy laden, and I will give  you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and slearn from me, for I am       tgentle and lowly in heart, and uyou will find rest for your souls. 30      For vmy yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

Thank you for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all, Everybody!

Doing All I Can To Keep Busy

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Hey, Y’all!

I hope this finds you well. I am staying busy with doctors’ appointments as usual and spring cleaning. Yes, it is that time of year! I can see the light ahead. I will accomplish more purging and cleaning. Keeping busy helps my mind not wander too far out.

In my last blog post entry, I mentioned having health concerns and I am being able to have those treated at home and in the wound clinic. I am grateful that this is how we are proceeding thus far.

I do believe sometimes; a little scare can keep me motivated and steady the course. I do want to live my best life and be the best version of myself I can be.

I am finding I cannot do everything overnight and changes are being made a little at a time. I take my inventory constantly. You know sometimes I will say, “Eyes on your paper.” I often say this to myself especially when I am disregarding my backyard.

I am trying to live out my word consistency. As much as I want consistency in my life, it is far from being consistent. I am slowly realizing how important it is to at least make a few things consistent. I know that by finding gratitude for a few things; being consistent in a few things I can grow more consistent.

It is imperative to take care of my health. This includes getting the sleep I need and taking my medicine at the same time as directed daily. It also means eating balanced meals at the same time. I also need my sleep to be at the same time. I have the medicine down it is the rest of the things as well as keeping physically active. Simple walking and exercising.

I am being more religious with my lymphedema pumps. especially during this spring cleaning. I care more about myself today than I ever have in my life.

I do want that feeling of being in love with life. I am willing to keep working at doing what is needed to achieve just that.

Today as I write, I am listening to all the songs from my younger years, and it feels nostalgic. I am refusing to allow myself to get all down in the mulligrubs. If I let my mind go too far it can go, there. This is where I can take all my thoughts captive.

There is a lot I do miss from my younger years. I wish could go back to that man and tell him some truths as well as a few funny stories. The biggest thing is, I would make sure he knew he was worth loving and that things would not always be this way.

It has been two weeks since the previous paragraph was written. I waited for labs and tests and fears of being hospitalized again as I am fighting another infection. I have had to deal with the normal schedule and fit in time for extras, which has taken me away from writing.

Fortunately, normal wound care and oral medication are working. I believe prayer and faith have been of utmost importance for healing and protection. Despite my many faults, God hears my prayers and is moved with forgiveness for me. I am hearing a lot about Psalm 91.

I hope to write more about Psalm 91 soon. It has been a part of my journey in the past. However, it was conveniently put on the back burner until this week. More to come soon!

Psalm 91:14-16 ESV

14“Because he holds fast to me in love, I will deliver him;
    I will protect him, because he knows my name.
15 When he calls to me, I will answer him;
    I will be with him in trouble;
    I will rescue him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
    and show him my salvation.”

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all, Everybody!

Waking Up In The Wee Morning Hours

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Hey, Y’all!

Good morning! I woke up at 2:21 a.m. I was in bed by 9:35 p.m. I believe I was subconsciously bothered by the fact; I left the kitchen a mess. I was in automatic mode when I woke up and went to work cleaning up my mess.

Oh yes, coffee time is here, regardless. My coffee tastes great, first thing in the morning. I look forward to it helping me be in a calm state.

Here it is two hours later, having taken so much time to be comfortable. I had to set up my pumps, settle in with my coffee, and get the music turned on. I want my things and my comfort.

Can you believe we started the second week of the new year, yesterday?

The new work week for me starts today. I have a home health nurse coming this morning to do my dressing changes. I also have my home health aid worker coming today. Being up early does make writing easier. I am not sure; I want to be up at 2:30 am every day.

I do want a regular schedule. It is all about routine. Having a routine is what has helped my mama, grandma, and other successful people live longer than I have. I want to be successful and meet my goals. It is all part of the healing process, and healing takes hard work.

We can ask for all the prayers and say all the prayers possible, but there is work for me to do. Faith takes work. Many people call faith a spiritual muscle. Sometimes it is making those physical muscles work as well.

I just got this image of God saying, “I am not asking you to run a 50-yard dash; all I am asking you to do, is walk!”

For those of you who may not know I have had a diagnosis of venous insufficiency. I have had wounds and a few months ago I had an infection that turned into Osteomyelitis. I have had chronic wounds since the late 1990s. Thankfully, the Osteomyelitis was able to be removed by cutting out two small bones through an incise on the side below my great toe of the left foot. This prevented the spread of the horrible infection to the main bone that is connected to the left leg. To this date, I have been infection free. Perhaps this is the longest time yet, I have not had an infection or have had to take antibiotics.

My goals surround being fully healed. A good part of this means, getting weight off and increasing my mobility. Sometimes we get healed instantly, sometimes not at all, and other times healing comes as an education. Some of us are slow learners. I am learning now, though!

I will get consistent. I will practice consistency today by exercising, walking, and being ready for each appointment.

Most days I do accomplish a lot of tasks. I do require help some days. I do need to learn to ask for the right kind of help and in the right way. However, I find doing as much as I physically can handle keeps me more independent.

This is a part of my journey. Thankfully, this is me on the other side of having an infection.

 Proverbs 17:22 ESV

 A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.

I will be joyful as I go for a walk right now! I went for a twenty-minute walk.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all, Everybody!

The Countdown Begins Happy New Year’s Eve!

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Hey, Y’all!

I am hoping to get this blog post entry on time.

Today has been a day of action. I am still in the process of finishing all the tasks, I had hoped to finish.

I refuse to let myself off the hook for finishing the task as they are reasonable to have finished by the end of the day. The only exception would be putting together the stand. That is only because it involves assembly with screws, bolts, and shelves that are awkward to manage. Even so, I do believe I can manage it.

Aside from the tasks, tonight is a night for me to be thankful for the things I have gone through on my journey in the past year. I also want to pray and meditate for the next year coming up. I need God’s help to stay committed to being consistent in the next year.

I believe the next year will surely have challenges. But we cannot cry and shy away from takings the risks necessary because it is difficult.

On a side note, I may not finish this entry in time for WordPress to count this as part of today. However, I hope the relevance of the message is more important.

As I look to find better ways along my journey, I hope to extend my life by being more initiative-taking with my health. I want to be more loving to myself. I want to show myself more grace while still pushing forward. I am harder on myself than anyone and judgmental of my failings.

I do love the current changes I have made and hope to correct the wrongs I have made along the way.

I love my therapist in the way of a brother that has some insight and is not judgmental. He is supportive regardless of if I am supportive of myself in a few or many single sessions, or not. That is another point in my journey, I do want to do better and be present for myself.

So yes, the upcoming year is a chance for a huge reset and to do the things that help me thrive physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

I hope in the next year to embrace the Nature God Created, hug a tree, feel the grass beneath my feet, in walking to see the beautiful colors, and soar high with eagles in meditation and prayer.

There is beauty in this life that gets bypassed in the business of the day.

I hope to even get back to my spiritual journaling and write a lot like what has been attributed to David the Psalmist. I did write a lot like that at one time and made me feel much closer to God. I need that, to be fresh and free spiritually.

I am not sure many can relate but it is more of a thing of being more in my spirit, poured out first, to God. It is okay if you do not understand it. What is important is that I do and that I take that action.

I do not know how to fit it all in daily, but the timing will come, as does this New Year!

Thanks for reading!

Happy New Year’s Eve, Y’all!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all, Everybody!

Life On This Earth Is Temporary

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Walthers Park

Hey, Y’all!

I am here again beginning the second week of my recovery of my post-surgery.

Today is a busy day starting with an early phone call and making breakfast. I am taking my medicine and getting ready for my ride for a lung cancer screening and a trip to the wound clinic for a dressing change.

As of Friday, I have been tracking my vital signs and taking my blood sugar test daily. It is all part of me taking care of myself.

I am dealing with feelings and emotions. I am looking at how my behavior has been and what it is I am looking for and want so that I might reach some goals to make my life better.

I am not always proud of how I behave but I am improving with time.

What do I want my life to look like?

I want to be successful and find a way to be prosperous, and simple. I want to be an example for others. I want to show others and prove to myself I can do anything I set my mind to and to live positively and mindfully that will allow me to be free and not hang on to the guilt of past mistakes.

What will help simplify my life?

Having an organized routine and making the changes possible to follow through. So often we allow people and things to bombard our lives when we are trying to set a routine.

We must be selfish when it comes to our time and spend it wisely because there are only 24 hours in a day and how we spend those 24 hours is completely up to us. We must take responsibility for our decisions because we have a limited number of twenty-four hours allotted to us.

Once we have this perspective it makes it easier to know what we are willing to spend our time on much like having a budget with a bank account.

Our bank account may look limitless but will run dry if we do not invest money and put more in our bank account.

The same is true with our time. We need rest. We must rest otherwise we become depleted of energy and life.

What is acceptable and reasonable?

Taking care of the responsibilities that are mine and which will help further my self-improvement. To have my understanding of God expanded and to understand that God loves me and that I can be loving and accept myself too.

I can take time to answer questions I do not need to respond to immediately just because it is demanded by others.

To have a positive outlook and change things up. To be willing to try new things as the occasion may arise.

To follow a daily routine and realize changes may come that may be pertinent.

What is unreasonable and unacceptable?

Guilt trips from others to try to manipulate my decision process are not okay.

To be irresponsible with time and resources have unnecessary consequences I cannot afford. If I can look at each activity throughout the day and realize the price tag each item has, I would be all the wiser.

What are my accomplishments?

I have completed a GED and obtained my GED in 2011

I have overcome Osteomyelitis through surgery and have all my limbs.

I have made blog entries off and on for years and working my way to writing full-time and getting better with time.

I have made dietary changes and have had to make changes based on finances.

I am initiative-taking in my health care and doing things to help enhance my health. I still have room to grow in this area.

I am taking responsibility for my actions.

What is it in my life that needs improvement?

My writing needs improvement constantly and to be more consistent with my blog.

My daily diet needs improvement. I need more exercise.

I need to call out others when they are responsible for the care of my physical health and neglect those needs fearlessly.

I need to not be a wimp and realize I have rights and stand up for myself in the right ways.

To be more consistent in my routine.

What does success look like for me?

Making money doing what I love and helping others.

To be a rock star at writing and turning my life around.

To be an encourager and full of faith.

To assert me and know my values and treat others with the respect they deserve.

The things I am thankful for:

I am thankful for this second week of recovery and for being willing to be well and grow.

I am thankful for everyone still praying and checking in on me.

I am thankful for the ability to be home, drink my coffee make my own meals and write.

I am thankful for a clean home and a bed and all the basic things.

I am thankful for prayer and meditation and a Loving God as He may express Himself in my life.

Thanks for reading!

 This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all, Everybody!

Are We Not The Deceiver Of Ourselves?

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Hey, Y’all!

First off, Happy September!

Second Happy Monday! and Happy Labor Day!

Here we are for another look in the mirror. It is all that time and space filled with trips in our brains filled with memories of fun, happiness, joy, sadness, anger, grief, hope, gratitude, and peace.

Our dreams and nightmares have it all wrapped up inside us. How we respond and live each day is in direct proportion to what we hold on to. We hold on to stuff because we either have not found a way to make thing things right or we have not made peace with it. In other words, we have not cleared our side of the street.

Are you interested in what started this ball of regret, cluttered, and dysfunctional life of living hell started? Are you ready for the truth? It has taken me 50-plus years to produce the same answer told to me many years ago.

It started with a lie! The lies that others told me and the lies I believed are some of the same ones I told because I thought they were the truth. I was not so good at making up my lies I had to practice those lies. I had to lie to myself hoping, I could believe my lies so that others would believe them too!

No matter how small a lie is it can take you to some dark places. What woke me up to this was a nightmare I had last week. I was never so scared and grateful to wake up from it. I woke up to the ringing of the phone. Thank heavens, quite literally! I was in Hell.

For some backstories, I have gotten lazy in my writing. This is usually a clear indication I am lazy in self-care. This means even prayer and meditation are suffering. This also means there is a ticking bomb inside me ready to go off if someone I allow lights the fuse.

A friend called and we were going to go through a study together. I leaped out of that bed to do exactly that. In another time and place, I probably either slept through the phone or woke up staring at it and telling it to shut up. I even said to my friend I have never been so grateful for a phone call.

Here we are! I write a letter once telling a lie, I was not going to mail it but still, it had that lie. The letter was found in a trash can by someone else, who then confronted me with the letter. I then quickly lied, by saying I lied about something else so I could escape this situation I found myself in.

I then tried to tell myself none of this was happening. One, being confronted by someone with a letter of lies, two that what had happened in the past, did not happen since I just made the new lie up. How do I keep up with this lying?

There was so much wasted energy wasted time, and then burning bridges on fire at present! It did not stop there!

Love and romance were for me, or so I thought. I just wanted to be a normal cool guy. Heartbroken by number one and soon number two, she was a genie in a bottle who held the bottle of Jack Daniels and a joint. Nothing was going to stop me now.

She lied to me! Why would she lie? She messed up everything. I let her because I lied to her too! I did not see all that was coming. Why would a Genie lie to me? In a smashed-up Mustang convertible, she and I lied but we had been hit by a drunk driver. I escaped with my life with barely a scratch. She escaped too with a broken arm or leg but with her life.

I watched as the officer poured out our Jack Daniels. The true love of my life was being poured out on the ground, and I am underage! Lies full of lies!

The Love Train was a train wreck! Miraculously, we were not charged with public intoxication, and she did not get a DUI! Her web of lies my web of lies it all kept working till she and I both destroyed me in my family’s church, and it was trying to destroy my family.

I can tell this story because it is my story.

Not once had I laid a hand on her, not once had I talked to her like trash or threaten her but a whole church believed her. Yet, I had no idea this was even being said. I was oblivious to it. I let her lie.

That is just the beginning, with some middle parts of the story of lies in my life that I created or believed.

Now, all this has me singing in my head, George Strait’s song, “I Let Her Lie.”

We all believe what we want to believe in the end. Who and what are you going to believe in your own life today?

I do not know about you. I am seeing some solid foundation, finally.

It is time for some more coffee, scrambled eggs, sausage, and toast!

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all, Everybody!

Egg Salad, Bacon, And Tomato With Some Weirdness

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Egg Salad, Bacon, and Mater Sandwich – 2022

Hey, Y’all!

It is good to be here writing and hopefully, it will all upload amid the global sporadic Spectrum Internet!

I have yet to do a new YouTube video. It has been a weird busy week.

I have had plenty to fill my time. I feel way off schedule and behind on several chores and my current project of making my place livable just for me and not having to take the home health nurses in mind. I do hope to have the carpet shampooed by this evening. As it is going on midnight as I write this now.

My friend brought over several Keto meals and snacks for me. What a surprise blessing that is for me. I am thinking I may show these in the video coming up.

I did make an egg salad sandwich with a slice of tomato. I also made the chili for that night and lunch the next day. Most of it I put in the freezer.

I was too tired to remember to photograph the chili, but it was incredibly good, and I will enjoy it again soon.

Health-wise, I am going once a week to the wound clinic for dressing changes and feel good about it so far. I also have a nurse coming once a week to take my vitals and fill my meds. This helps me with the tedious task of filling a medicine box and is an enjoyable time to visit and have human interaction.

I do have most of the gadgets necessary for my vitals. This helps the nurse quite a bit.

I never did finish this entry and I am going to attempt to do that now. I had hoped to have this finished for Thursday. That did not work out and Friday I ended up going by ambulance to the hospital which I will address in a separate entry.

I did however make it home by Friday evening but the rest of Friday and most of Saturday found me light-headed. I am feeling better.

This last week has been a weird week as far as scheduling and getting daily tasks completed.

As I enter the new week, my question to myself is the same as usual. What is it that I am willing to do differently?

The answer is, for me to just do what is in front of me and get my head out of the clouds.

I get sidetracked, by letting myself think about other things as I am doing my best to complete a task.

While I do want to keep changing and doing things differently, I am also doing what I can to change the scenery that surrounds me.

I hope to complete half of the Thursday and Friday lists for this last week today, and tomorrow. The days’ work does mount up, especially when you get behind.

Friday knocked the wind out of my sails. I learned you can backward in everything you strive for, zero to sixty. It gets better, it gets worse, and it gets different.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

As Far As It Depends Upon Me

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Banana Bread Loaf August 8th, 2022.

Hey, Y’all!

Today I just got a banana bread loaf put in the oven. I am also going to do an egg salad with bacon and a sandwich with a slice of tomato. I am going to do some chili much later today some for this week and some to freeze.

I finally tried the donut shop coffee pods. I fell in love with a medium roast coffee because I am usually for Darker Roast Columbian-style Coffee or French Dark Roast Coffee.

In other news, I am still rearranging only a bit of my office/living room area. I have a picture to move and supplies to move to the bedroom out of the way. I am happier thinking of only myself in this arranging business.

Sometimes you must make a bigger mess of things to get it right.

When the banana bread loaf comes out of the oven, we should have a slice with butter and a cup of hot coffee. I want to enjoy a piece and bask in the time I have alone. In enough time before my helper comes in to clean and do errands.

I am hoping for most chores and myself to be in order.

So now back to hopefully in a bit of having that banana bread and coffee, I want to think about all the things that are dependent on me. I want to think about what is dependent upon me for more peace in my life. What is dependent upon me to be able to pack into the stream of life?

I think the only way to be emotionally in tune is to tune our spirituality. I manage people and circumstances a lot better when I take the time to be with myself and God. I need that time even if it is only a minute or two before a tough situation or confrontation. If it is a confrontation I know today, if possible, I need to ask for time to table the conversation so that I can get alone and be mindful and seek out help to be able to come back to the table. I realize many times that is an impossible request, and it is an immediate situation. This is where the pause and deep breaths come in when I think to follow that direction.

I am finding when I hear myself saying good things, I say aloud, “Michael, I hope you are listening to yourself.” Because often these things are unexpected from nowhere. It is shocking to hear myself sometimes because of being emotionally and spiritually screwed up for years.

My life has calmed down a whole lot over the years and I have mellowed out some. It has taken over 56 years to get to this point in life. It is a case of sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly, and often slowly.

The banana bread just finished. It is just in time for a break after this entry gets published. Piping hot from the oven cooling down just enough so it separates the sides from the loaf pan. Then a slice with a gob of butter melting on it with my cup of hot coffee.

Let me close by sharing the prayer of St Francis of Assisi:

Prayer of St. Francis of Assisi (Prayer for Peace)

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace:
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy.
O divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand,
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

As far as it depends upon me let there be peace.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

Hard Times Are Here Harder Times Coming

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Park Hills 2022

Hey, Y’all!

It is Sunday, August 7th, 2022. I write about some complaints, self-betterment, recovery, spirituality, religion, cooking, and enjoying life. I do not just stick to those topics, or I will not be sticking to only those topics.

I think all topics should be fair game. We are in a world full of changes politically, religiously, economically, and with real-life hard struggles.

Some have no understanding we are in the middle of a crisis that is coming. Yet for some of us, that time is here. If you are on a fixed income, it is here. Getting groceries anymore is an emotional time for me.

I am having to decide what I can do without each month and how to preserve and stock up at the same time. DO NOT TAKE THIS AS ME ASKING FOR HANDOUTS. I am not!

This is a time to stay busy and I should have started even a year ago or more. Hindsight is 20/20. I know today it is not just me. Soon a lot more will be facing these circumstances. We are learning that our dollar will not stretch. It is not worth much at all,

I am trying to keep my electric bill down to $60 a month. It is particularly challenging at times. I will keep reminding people we need to be prepared and do everything to save.

This entails learning new skills, stocking up on supplies, changing our entertainment, and doing what we can for ourselves so others can take care of themselves. I also believe in helping others and I do that as well. It is about sharing what we have and building community.

Do your homework. Find trusted news sources. Go over your budget and check out your insurance find someone to explain the legal jargon you can trust. Make changes, as necessary.

Find out what you would do if no electricity or water. Those times are coming, it is a fact.

I have shared I watch preppers, cooks, farmers, homesteaders, auto mechanics, and different people. We cannot just keep going with our heads in the sand!

I am grateful for the knowledge I am gleaning. It would be a lot different if only a handful are saying we are heading for a depression! It is not that way.

You do not like leftovers? Well, that may change soon, or you will learn to take a dish and make it a few separate ways. Some of these people are saying some of us will not make it. I have no reason to doubt that.

However even being late in the game and seeing price hikes looming over us if we take heed now, we may have a chance.

Meals in themselves may look different. It may not be three sides an entrée and a dessert. It may be an entrée with vegetables in it. That is if we are lucky to have anything!

Some people may have supplies stocked up and have things under control. Most people I know are living paycheck to paycheck if they even have an income of any type.

However, on a lighter note, I am in the middle of rearranging my living room/office once more. I am finally getting to arrange my space as if nurses will not be coming in from now on.

I am hoping in some ways, this is a new chapter. I hated having medical supplies having to be a focal point in easy care for me. They were taking over spaces I meant for other decorations.

This way my arrangements are about my space for me, rather than having to take visiting nurses into consideration for every move. It will take some tweaking, I am sure.

I am making chili this week some to have and some to freeze.

I hope to get another YouTube video up and again, I hope to be consistent here.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

Happy Thanksgiving In July Yes, That’s Right!

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BoxcarMike on Youtube August 4th,2022

Hey, Y’all!

I am here roasting a turkey in the oven. I have sanitized the kitchen and taking the time to write a little something.

It feels like I am caught up despite oversleeping. I have a couple of deliveries of over-the-counter products coming from my insurance which will help in things normally I would have to budget for or go without.

Life is constantly dealing with these insignificant things which are in the middle of a routine that takes the energy of planning.

You know you must continue in your day by praying and hoping everything turns out well.

The hardest struggle is with self and knowing your attitude must improve to tolerate others. I do want to love other people, but it just seems as much as I can feel unlovable, so do other people.

I know others might even just consider me a grumpy middle-aged man.

In many ways, I still feel like the sixteen-year-old boy trying to figure out the ways of this world and wondering when I got older characteristics, that to me should not be that noticeable to other people and yet, they are noticeable to others anyway.

I am finishing this blog entry from the other day I started on Thursday, July 21st, 2022. It is now Monday, July 25th, 2022.

I was not caught up on my day Thursday, and I was near a melt-down mode trying to finish the turkey and stuffing. The turkey turned out great! The stuffing was a Keto-Gluten-Free recipe, and it turned out great!

I had two different friends over, one on Thursday, who provided the turkey to cook and all the ingredients I needed for the recipes. I had another friend who enjoyed a second supper on Friday, who provided our drinks. I had a wonderful time with both people. My weekend was restful and just unwinding from the week. I wanted everything to go perfect. While everything tasted good the presentation of the turkey-looking appetizing was a major failure.

However, the most important part to me was the safety of the turkey cooked all the way. Also, so no one is sick due to carelessness or unsafe practices in cooking.

On a personal note, each person in their way added to my memory for my dad, on what would have been his birthday.

As for today Monday, it is another day of being ready to keep on the move with a shower, a hot cup of coffee, and my morning phone call.

I look forward to each morning’s phone call with a trusted friend.

I am starting to run behind schedule. I will finish this entry after lunch.

It turns out, that my Thanksgiving lasted only a short term. I became bewildered over insurance issues and medical issues. It has taken about two weeks for me to climb back up from the depression I fell into.

I feel like the ground below may not crumble after all. As of this past Monday, I confronted a problem head-on to get the insurance and medical issues straightened out hopefully in effect for the beginning of September.

I am sorry this took so long to finally get this blog entry posted. Today I did upload a video of my rambling out a message to viewers. Please look at it here https://youtu.be/ioGWCqoUQwI and as always, thank you.

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!