
Hey, Y’all!
Today, my schedule includes a wound care appointment. I will have grafts applied to my wounds. I am hoping all the grafts take. To see the healing progress of the wounds is good. I do have more optimism as I see the progress with each dressing change.
I woke up at 3:50 a.m. before the alarm sounded. I decided to get up anyway to take advantage of the extra time. I am anxious this morning as I write. I am anxious because it is clear, no matter how much time I have, there is always more to do. Managing the time and tasks is still challenging.
I had started this entry early this morning and time caught up to me once more. I have done some walking and I took a nap once I got home from my appointment.
I am grateful today at my appointment my fears were put to rest by the Nurse Practitioner and my Nurse. There was some thick calloused skin to be removed. It was causing me pain. All the wounds look good, and I am approved to keep going with the skin grafts.
I am pressing through once more writing while my chore worker is here. I am having my worship music going to try and keep me focused on just my writing. This can be challenging. I prefer to not have to communicate during this time.
My silence communicates loudly. We only have an hour to go as it helped to do an hour of overtime yesterday. I can do this more nicely!
You see I have learned any kind of anger can make my writing time unenjoyable. My whole point in writing is to get a message out and enjoy it at the same time. It does not serve me well to be angry or resent the situation.
I am taking every opportunity to find ways to manage my time. The nap did help me physically. However, it did cost me more time than I intended. My lesson today is about learning to be okay with readjusting accordingly.
Inside I am screaming mad, and my mind feels so cluttered with all the information I have soaked up in changing my approach to what it means for me to be consistent. I am also trying to accomplish too many tasks at once. I will take a breath, now.
I was reminded this morning that I am doing great. I do need to remember this is the first week of making changes. I do have too high of expectations of myself, in that I want it as though I have been living in a new way, all my life.
Cutting out the clutter in my mind is a process. It is going to take time.
I am not forgetting to be thankful in this process of change.
- I am thankful I want to be intentional.
- I am thankful for reminders to breathe.
- I am thankful I am responsible for my progress.
- I am thankful I am not doing this alone and I have wonderful supportive friends. But especially one friend and my Mama.
- I am thankful for a new way to communicate with my brother and his family.
- I am thankful I took a moment to breathe and just connect with my chore worker for a few minutes today.
- I am thankful this process is taking place and I will not be defeated in following it through.
- I am thankful I can encourage others.
- I am thankful I can fight the disease with the tools I have been able to acquire.
- I am grateful that being thankful with all my heart can change the balance of all things.
In the end, today has been a success through my gratitude.
Philippians 4:7 ESV And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Thanks for reading!
This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!
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