Confrontation

Preparing Myself By Taking Responsibility For Upcoming Events

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Bismarck, Missouri 2018

Hey, Y’all!

I am back writing again today. Yesterday, I wrote about current affairs in the world and being prepared for a world crisis. Every part of life has to do with being prepared and can help lower the anxiety that arises. It is taking the responsibility for our lives.

I explained yesterday I am on disability. This means I am on a limited income. This means my budget only allows for so much in supplies and to cover my needs. The warning I gave out to watch and be prepared is about learning to live without some luxuries.

Life is hard and there is much we can do to make it a little bit easier by being prepared.

I listen to people on various platforms. I listen to farmers, preppers, homesteaders, pastors, cooks, truckers, few but also some people in politics. I try to tune out of the news as much as possible. However, like most curiosity gets to me. I refuse to watch any daily news on television.

My writing takes different tangents depending upon where I am daily.

I do write a lot on recovery, and spirituality. Since Covid19 there has been a lot of turmoil. I write a lot about where I am with routine and how important it is to me to not go backward in my basic physical, emotional, and spiritual healing. It all boils down to my journey.

Taking the responsibility for my journey which is my life. I do not wait for people to call me out on the things I may fail in. It is more important for me to recognize and take the responsibility for correcting my actions as much as I can.

Swallowing the hard chunks of truth about myself and using the people in my circle to bounce stuff on, and hear their experience, strength, and hope.

I want to keep moving in my journey and not stay stuck. To surround me in more healthy ways and try new and diverse ways. To learn to be more open-minded and not think my ways are the only ways. If no one can tell you anything, chances are you are going to get stuck and stay stuck. This drives me nuts and keeps me depressed and is no longer an option for me.

In my journey, I have learned how to make things easier by organizing and stopping hoarding. Stocking up a pantry of food and supplies is not the same thing as hoarding. When you learn to throw away things and get rid of things that are supposed sentimental.

Learning to clean up after every mess is important. Cleaning as you go stops a lot of catastrophes and messes.

Planning stops a lot of headaches. Planning for me is starting each day with a prayer and meditation. Make my phone calls and have both my physical calendar and my digital calendar. Making my gratitude list and list of things to do each day.

Staying on top of medications is just as important as breathing.

Meal planning takes effort if you have it packaged correctly and taking up less space it makes it a lot easier.

Making and keeping my boundaries has proven to be challenging for me. But it is an important part of not having a short fuse in dealing with others. I find myself more taking breaths and stating my needs at moments. Sometimes it is learning to laugh so you have an extra breath before you sound too serious or demanding.

That is not to say you might not have to keep repeating the same statement in a direct serious tone. These are serious times with plenty of stress.

For others to respect your time, space, boundaries, and things you must respect them first. This I have learned on a summary of all these things I have mentioned. Still, I must keep practicing as well. No one has it all down.

It is continuous learning and practicing. This is me staying busy. It is time for lunch!

Thanks for reading!

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Making Choices And Keeping The Wolves Away

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Where part of my childhood was left behind.

Victoria, Missouri 2016 (Desoto)

Hey Y’all,

Here we are continuing to move forward with the rising inflation in everything that is affecting us as common people. If you are anything like me trying to live on a slim budget, you are constantly making choices on what you can have and not have.

It comes down to what you eat, cleaning, laundry, and of course the extras in any kind of entertainment or technology to stay current. I am grateful for the help I do have, Though, at times I have wanted to wish away the help, not realizing I could be shooting myself in the foot.

I did the monthly shopping yesterday rather; I had a helper do it with my list. I did a guestimate of prices and was close. I went over the guestimate by $15.00. The remaining balance forces choices for what is available for the rest of the month.

On my social media, I have hinted around to the fact that farmers, preppers, truckers, and even the Chief of The United Nations, have warned of global food shortages are coming. Some people might be calling these alarmists or fear-mongering people.

We are amid the beginning of it especially when things are missing off the store shelves. Stores can make their shelves look full. What happens is, that you start being unable to find the same product you usually buy.

As a country, we have not had it this financially probably since The Great Depression. One of my favorite people says that is exactly what we are soon to be in for another, Great Depression. It is past time to take heed to that.

We had close calls in the first part of Covid19, and yet most of us only had a taste of what was like. Many lost jobs, incomes, homes, and their very lives due to Covid19 and the effects of the disease.

I am on disability and yet healing beyond what I was a year ago, thankfully!

I did not get to start my garden or even collect the things I thought I might do to try to learn water-bath canning. It was a hope and believed I could pull it all together.

I am very eager to learn, but not all the things could I get together. In part, I am learning I am more eager than the actual work of it all is in my ability.

What is in my ability is to stock my fridge, freezer, and pantry. I cook all my meals at home. I do not go out to eat unless a friend has come by to get me to go out. In most cases, I prefer my cooking over any fast food, restaurants, take-out, or delivery. However, I am human like anyone else, and a break from the kitchen is most welcomed.

That said, I have gotten, and I hate most people going into my kitchen because they in most cases are not going to prepare my meal or treat my pots and pans right. I am demanding in my kitchen I want things done a certain way.

When I was ill, I could endure a lot of things. Burned cheeseburgers, and messed-up omelets, were all acceptable. I love a burned cheeseburger.

Here is the real issue. It is stocking up the pantry with spam peanut butter, and canned meats, vegetables, and fruits of any kind. Having sugar, flour, salt, baking powder, baking soda, vanilla, instant coffee, creamer, tea, water, hygiene stuff toilet paper, and cleaning supplies.

If you think you have enough for one or two months, you do not have enough. Are you going to be able to have all your extras that are must-haves? Nope!

The wolves are coming to the door, and you need to be prepared stocked up, and ready to protect what is yours. Hey, this does not mean stopping helping one another and living in a community.

We just need to be prepared. It is past time, and we are on borrowed time to get it done already! Let us get it done and be prepared.

Thanks for reading!

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Learning To Be Gentler Towards Myself And Others

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Irondale 2019

Hey, Y’all!

I am doing well on this second day of my reset again. I am in the middle of changing things up and trying to be easy with myself but consistent. I have a determined mind to not allow myself to go backward one day at a time and find the willingness to keep writing.

Monday was Independence Day. I stayed in bed sick all day and all evening.

I do not want to wake up every day ready to scream because things are not going my way or place judgments on people when I have no idea what the full story is for them. In some respects, my writing is to try and deter some people from judging me when it is my judgment against me.

I love what happened to me this morning as I was cooking breakfast and making my coffee. I was praying as well. I usually do a fast prayer and say amen, before I get my sip of coffee and make my daily morning call to a trusted and sweet friend.

My prayer went into thanking God for the things I was grateful for and asking for help throughout the day. I do not want to be that angry person or feel the need for vile language. I do not want to feel like I am refraining all the time either. That is not how I am supposed to be.

When I am out of control of my emotions and words, it is not just slipping. It is an all-out war and here is the thing, in the end, it is a war with self. It is not about people just being stupid. Although, I often say it is and that you cannot cure stupidity.

It is taking those moments that can be stressful remembering to practice patience. People are often patient with me even when I am not showing any sign of grace towards anything or any situation. Again, I am looking at the war with myself.

I have zero tolerance and grace when I consider my actions stupid or thoughtless. I scream and curse at myself. Therefore, in the past, that has been my cop-out if people understood how hard I was on myself they would I was going light on them in comparison. That is still not good for others or me. It is not okay to treat others or myself like garbage.

In Boxcar Mike’s Motivational Board -The very first card says, my friends and I do not hurt each other or ourselves. I try to live by that motivational board but, I fail too. What I learned today in being quieter within and listening to the small voice is that I do not have to rage.

I did a bit of initiative-taking things that require patience, like getting medications set up, making an eye doctor appointment, updating the pharmacy with my insurance, and calling my doctor for refills on the medications I take.

I got through it all without being impatient or raising my voice. It has been a good day. We just need to manage things at a slower pace and steady. Taking the time to realize we can be patient and handle others with genuine care when we do the same for ourselves.

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It Has All Been Said And Done Before

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Desoto, Missouri 2016

Hey Y’all,

I have gotten so far behind after losing any routine I had built up. I am just always happy to reconnect. Once I start doing the things that help me do the things I need to, I start becoming more content. The bottom line is if you want the prizes, you must do the work necessary for those prizes.

What are the prizes?

The prizes are in my own life more weight loss, self-betterment, more consistency in life, more energy, a spiritual life that is positive, and a longer fuse. Happiness is the goal! Just even mere contentment with life and in life. It is not hard to do. The key is to stay current and connected.

My priceless moment at the end of a workday is pushing people out my door, at least in my mind!

Some of you might say. “You’re on disability you do not work!” Let me beg to differ. I am on call 8 am-4 pm daily Mon- Friday, and on some weekends! I have professionals in my home Monday through Friday and on some weekends! If I get people out early, it is all the better. However, some days, I am not done until 5:30 pm.

If I could truly do anything I want in these hours, it would not be having people in my home or doing things to fit into others’ plans. So please do not tell me how easy I have it! I admit it is not all manual labor and my work allows me to take shower on the clock.

Heck, there is a benefit for me! I do enjoy my coffee. But it is not watching movies all day. Now in most cases, no one can write me up for having a difficult day. However, some have tried to write me up! It is my pleasant disposition that helps keep some people at bay.

If only they would stay, there. I am half kidding. Naps would be a wonderful thing! I wish I could encourage and even insist on some people taking them. It would stop so much useless information from going inside my head! I could go on about this! No, I really could!

Now my work is about getting me better and in a place of healing physically, emotionally, and spiritually. It is taking back the responsibility of caring for myself with some help and a watchful eye.

I have so much more progress to make but I have come a long way in the last year.

Yet, I have back-slid enough to pick up certain pieces and make them work for me. Now, it is back to being engaged and participating in my own life and the recovery of my emotional and physical well-being. Here I am resetting the routine. Once more, doing it again in hopes of it taking this time.

Honesty with God, myself, and others.

Open-mindedness to hear other experiences and what works for them.

Willingness to follow through and not give up.

This is the answer, but it is the action that takes you through a process of twists and turns and constantly changing.

I have complained that my fuse has gotten shorter and that I just will not put up with nonsense. Here is how this goes. No one is going to fix that for me. No one can change me or you, we only have ourselves and God to do that in my belief system.

So, we take the stuff we learn, and we go to work. Just like scrolling on social media, we must ignore the stupid stuff that people try to inflict on our brains and find something positive to say or think about.

We make our world safe sometimes by removing ourselves from the situation and moving on to something else. It is best to function as if we have not heard it at all and ignore it. It is easier said than done. As it is with most simple ways, this is the case

In a conversation, I was having a week or so ago with my mama, she is one of the smartest people I know. We agreed we must pick our battles. Some battles are just not worth it. You must move on.

It was a few days later, that I was practicing the mantra I can do anything for twenty-four hours. I got my test within a couple of hours realizing I cannot reason with a person who lacks reasoning. Again, moved on.

It is refusing to be sucked in by the nonsense.

I get to share this with you as part of my journey.

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The Ultimate Price Men Paid For Freedom

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Hey All!

Today is Memorial Day, a time to remember the fallen. Those who paid the ultimate price. They didn’t get a choice to go backward. They powered through doing as trained. I give thanks to God for those men.

The past few weeks have been a difficult time for me in relearning some things and getting the timing down. I am back working on a project that is challenging for me. I must make peace with the fact it may just be the slow but steady progress. I cannot allow it to control me or my emotions.

As of Friday, I would have boarded up my windows if I could have. That is how much I wanted to get away from people, places, and things.

The thing of it is, I have had to take stock of going backward closing myself off.

The con is I stay wrapped up inside my head and the growth stops when I close myself off. The reality is some days will suck, while flying high on other days. The key is again the pauses they are important in stopping negativity from entering situations and communication.

You may be asking, how I can compare any of this to those men who fought for freedom? The answer simply is they went through challenges knowing their very life could be taken. Yet, they powered through and gave all until they had nothing left.

To give thanks to those men and show gratitude for what they have given, I must not allow myself to stop just because something is difficult. I have wanted to make changes and I have made changes.

My belief system comes into this journey as well. I mean, after all, I must have a conscience. I cannot leave that part out. In my beliefs is where I do find grace and courage. Now it may not be the courage of the men took, who have fallen. That is more reason to keep going and get through to the other side.

I must not give up on myself. No one else is coming. I have to pick myself up. Did I not get the memo?

Do the next right thing. It begins when I pick myself up off the ground and get back in the saddle. Have my coffee with my morning prayer and meditation. After my shower remember to acknowledge, high-five, and affirm myself. It is all part of self-care, loving myself, and knowing I love what I do as well.

This is all in nurturing the seeds planted in myself and others. I share what I have and what I struggle with. It is all communicating there are no shortcuts. It is in doing and following through is the only way to any kind of success no matter what it is you or I do.

Together we can! We all got dues to pay. It is a fact.

Psalm 31:24 ESV Be strong, and let your heart take courage,

all you who wait for the LORD!

Thanks for reading!

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The Struggle Is Real When Advocating For Yourself Or Others

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Hey, Y’all!

I am going off on a tangent here. I am on a roll about how important it is to advocate for yourself and others.

One of the major things people have tried to get across to me is asking for help. Now when it comes to the medical field and health care, the important part is knowing how to ask and what it is, that you are asking for help with.

As I have gotten older and okay maybe I have been bolder, but at times too shrinking away acting like I should not bother someone. They are two extremes that will ensure you do not get the right help.

You cannot scream for help unless you have fallen and okay using profanity is like throwing gasoline on a fire. It will not serve any purpose but exacerbate the situation instead of helping it.

I must admit I have not always followed this advice and have felt horrible and still angry afterward even in recent times. It did not help me, and it did not help the staff.

You must prepare ahead of time for appointments and rides.

1. Confirmation of appointments

2. Confirmation of rides plan to leave at least an hour before appointments.

3. Plan to not be home until an hour after the last appointment of the day.

4. Hygiene goes a long way when riding with others and with the staff. (Yes, it must be said!).

5. Make sure you have water and a snack (I have failed on this, it cost me greatly)!

NOTE* Please be ready for your driver -Communication goes a long way in most cases the ride is free he/she is providing you with a ride when they are usually way overbooked.

6. Having a list of medications and carrying your I.D. and insurance cards are good ideas to make sure your appointment goes through when you arrive.

7. Make sure your concerns are heard and that you have a clear understanding of orders for going home.

8. If driving yourself or someone you know is driving you, make sure you allow 10-15 minutes ahead of time for check-in. In a lot of cases, these days being more than 15 minutes late means you lost your appointment, and rescheduling is required. You may even be charged a fee for a lost appointment.

9. If you know ahead of time you are going to need to reschedule an appointment, please do so at least 24-48 hours ahead of time.

10. Try to find something to be grateful for in the appointment it can help you and your provider.

Dealing with home care agencies with house cleaning and errands.

  1. No helper is forever or legally bound to stay as your helper forever.
  2. Make sure personalities mix and that they are not afraid of work.
  3. If you have tried to work out differences and they are not doing assigned chores agreed upon when signing up with the agency it is time to call and ask for another helper.
  4. If the agency cannot help you get another helper it is time to move on to a different agency.
  5. Always document things. In every case with doctors, helpers, and nurses alike.
  6. Always have a hard copy of times and appointments, times when people enter your residence, and when they leave.
  7. Always have emergency numbers listed on a piece of paper in a convenient place as well as a list of medications you are currently taking.

Home Health Nurses

Remember they are an extension of your doctors and nurses being present and following the orders they have been given. If there is a situation call your doctor immediately and ask for clarification.

If there is a problem with personalities again, giving a chance can help.

However, if something is a risk health-wise and the nurse is not doing her job then call the home health nursing office and ask for a transfer.

They are only human too. So, respect and courtesy go a long way with them, and being at your residence and being ready for them will make your visit go way better.

Having your meds out and your list also helps them so things can move along, and no one is losing time. Following their directions is advised as well.

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Taking Responsibility In Being Prepared For H.A.L.T

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Shepherding OutDOORS by Walt Merrell Hoffman Press

Hey, Y’all!

Here it is lunchtime and barely finishing my coffee. I wanted to take the time to write today about H.A.L.T. I briefly went over it in a couple of writings. I have things popping up in my journey and I must be prepared for exactly those halt times.

I have failed even recently in taking the responsibility for my side of the street. I am doing my best to start thinking about turning that around by being prepared. I mean the reset came in time for me to try and do damage control over my whole life.

Now doing damage control does not mean I take on anyone’s judgment.

It is just taking responsibility and here we will go over again the acronym of H.A. L.T.

Hungry

Angry

Lonely

Tired

I am going to be taking snacks and water and water when I go out anymore because that is my responsibility. I cannot just blame things on blood sugar or being off schedule of my routine. That is not anyone else’s responsibility but mine.

 I have added a new post-it to my desk as a reminder. In changing my behavior visuals are important tools for me. Early on when first stabbing at getting sober I needed phone numbers. A gentleman handed me his phone number and on the back of it read this, “my friends and I do not hurt each other or ourselves.”

While I no longer have the card or know where that man is today; that card has stuck out in my mind all these years later. I wish I had followed that advice all these years. I want to practice those principles in my life today, to save a lot of heartache and headaches. I get the chance to pack more in the stream of life when I stop making excuses for my behavior.

I will say today has certainly not been a perfect day. I overslept once more and had to do a drive-by-text check-in. The rest of this week I Will be concentrating on waking up on time because again being late because I am tired is a behavior, I do not wish to continue.

Allowing the irresponsibility of not doing self-care can mean missed opportunities. Let me say, not being prepared for the halt moments is exactly, not practicing self-care.

While I say all of this I also say, you cannot beat yourself up as I must not do to myself. All we can do is, move forward and do better.

I know I want more for myself in the fact that; I cannot allow something done wrong by me or others to stand in the way of me getting more and giving more.

Again, this is where the accumulation of all the small things (that we think are trivial or insignificant), we or I do matters. They can make or break us from reaching our full potential for getting and being in all the good stuff.

My determination must say to myself, I can do this! Together we can!

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We Just Finished A Quarter Of The Year!

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Farmington Missouri 2021

Hey, Y’all!

Welcome to May 2022!

I am in the middle of doing a hard reset of my life. While it is Mel Robbins with the idea of doing a reset and training videos. I am grateful for her sharing the training videos. I have received a more in-depth look at everything.

I have more tools and systems to add to my toolbox. But I must say, even the Bible says there is nothing new under the sun. I have been in therapy for over twenty years and my therapist is the best in my book. He has asked many of the questions and wanted the same work done in this reset that is required.

So I am excited because it gave me a new way to look at those questions and figure out what I want and do not want in my life. What will my life look like if I have all the things I want my life to look like. It is just as important that I get to share this with my friends, family, and people who follow my journey.  

I had the opportunity to fill up my fun tank. I did a brunch with a friend. I got to implement my cooking in action by making a coffee cake and hash brown casserole. I am still learning to ask for help. Most of the time, I admit it comes down to me conceding to the fact I need help.

Sometimes I am surprised when it turns out to be a successful day. It is about connecting with another human being and living life on a spiritual plane. Sharing and loving each other. Taking action. Love and respect in action.

I have been missing the tools that have been right in front of me the whole time. The missing link had been learning how to take action. There is a way designed for tools to work, but the difference is the know-how.

The way to conquer the goals and larger achievements is by doing the small things. Doing the small steps to take a bigger stride.

I am a visual learner with hands-on. This means yes I want control. I have to see it in black and white at least, if not even color-coded, highlighted with exclamation points, and underlined. The bottom line is to just do the action!

When I get to check off what I have completed I feel accomplished. Seeing is believing! I am laughing as I write this part because it is hilarious that this is exactly how I act in real life when given a set of instructions. It is also usually followed up by, are you sure this is right?

Often I think up every reason why not to follow the directions or divert from the original plan. However, I  have to go back and read the original directions and just do what is directed.

I am resetting folks! Do you need a reset? I will be sharing more along this journey.

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Spring Reset With Mel Robbins And Catching Up Currently

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“You can’t control how you feel. But you can always choose how you act.” — Mel Robbins

Hey, Y’all!

I am at the last minute getting information out about a very important opportunity that could change your life.

The other evening I was going through my Facebook feed when I came across Mel Robbins offering a free Spring Reset 3- Part training. Mel Robbins is a motivational speaker. I jumped on the chance for this opportunity and hope that many others take this FREE Opportunity as well. Please Click The Link  https://courses.melrobbins.com/reset you will not be disappointed.

I have followed the instructions thus far and already have the training 1 video waiting for me to watch and work through in my email.

I have shared before and continue to share that a year ago when I was in the hospital and rehabilitation Nursing Home, I would not remain the same when I returned home.

I was released the Weekend of July 4th, 2021. My Independence Day personally, was July 4th, 2021. When friends did what they could but especially one friend who asked someone to help me move to a street-level apartment.

My life has not been the same since coming home that day. I have not, nor has anyone else found it necessary to call an ambulance for myself since the Spring of 2021. I want to continue my journey of change.

I am down to two wounds on my left extremity on either side of my ankle. A year and a half ago we were looking at 11-15 wounds total and maybe even more than that. I have lost a total of 75 pounds in the last year and I am hoping to press on beyond that.

I have made my apartment home and refer to it as my house. I feel like I am a sponge taking in everything I can learn, hoping to implement more changes in my life. I have plenty of room for improvement and want more than anything to keep growing and changing.

Emotionally and spiritually there has been an improvement in not having to take other people’s temperatures to see if I am okay.

I am closer to God than I have been in almost the whole seven years I have moved to South East Missouri. Again I have much room for improvement. I am finding I am for once, reasonably happy and content in my surroundings.

I am finding joy in my life. I have accused others of stealing my joy and maybe one or two monsters that were once in my life did steal my joy. But I realize today, I mostly traded my joy for fear, anger, resentment, hatred, self-loathing, and self-pity, Do you get it? I became my monster.

I am working to rid myself of all the monsters today.

I am learning to surrender, pray, and meditate. I have hope and a future.

I get the choice to listen to others and realize they help me more as I listen.

I do not have to defend myself today in stories others may hear about me or see. I have both been a good friend and a jerk. Both are true.

My life is not even close to what it once was and I am pushing forward.

Let’s Do this Spring Reset With Mel Robbins

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This World Is Too Much With Us

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A photo I took out by Bismarck Lake Bismarck, MO

Hey Y’all,

I am back. I am recovering from being sick and it has been challenging to say the least. I did enjoy my birthday, as it was one of the best!

The topic at hand grabbed my heart in the past week or so. I was watching a cooking show and saw someone had a devotion book with the title on the page that read: “This World Is Too Much With Us.”

When I saw the title, I instantly imagined God saying that out in the open as a statement.

I see God as the Ultimate Parent in my world. I see God as The Creator. I see God as love and the Spiritual Being or Divine One.

God in my eyes had rules and expectations, but most of all God had a plan. That plan included us. My views keep changing but the constant is that God loves me accepts me, created me, sees me as enough, and provides for me. He always provides a way out if I look for it. I find myself when going through a difficult time, that Life was never meant to be this hard! There has to be an easier way!

I know when I begin a new adventure I will spend my energy foolishly, thinking if I just start full force with all I have I will plow through with no problem. But it does become a problem because I get worn out realizing I must start at the beginning once more.

It seems when we are the most worn is when we are needed most or that we need to be needed. We want to fulfill some impossible tasks. Because we want to help in some way, be a part of, and build a bridge to make it easier for others as well as ourselves.

We keep hoping for an easier softer way. The reality is if we just do what is in front of us to do is the easier way. The other way just becomes a way of using and being used up. It is like using some unearned credit to make it for what we think might be an easy ride up the mountain. What I fail to realize is that unearned credit is going to be time to be paid back plus interest. This is what living life on credit or a bartering system is like. Because in the very beginning we start using scales that are not balanced, It is just like gambling. Only we do it with our very lives, The house always what? The house always wins! We lose more than what we were supposed to gain.

The ways of this world just do not work. In the faint distance, I can hear my mom and dad calling after me. “We never meant that for you!” In the same way, I hear God today saying: “It was supposed to be easier, did you not hear my instructions? Did you not listen? I never meant that harm to you. That was not my plan for you!”

This world will use you up, chew you up, and spit you out. We get used up trying to find an easier, softer way.

Being on this journey means doing what is in front of me. Letting go of my expectations of what I think the instructions mean and following the instructions makes it easier. I see more beauty in life when I find my gratitude.

Safety comes when I just do my part and it becomes an easier mountain climb just one foot in front of the other. God has been here the whole time. This World is too much with us.

In the end, this is how we walk each other home. My Mama is calling for supper time … I just heard her…”Michael, Michael, Its’ time to come home!” Be there in a minute Ma!

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all!