Confrontation

Are We Not The Deceiver Of Ourselves?

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Hey, Y’all!

First off, Happy September!

Second Happy Monday! and Happy Labor Day!

Here we are for another look in the mirror. It is all that time and space filled with trips in our brains filled with memories of fun, happiness, joy, sadness, anger, grief, hope, gratitude, and peace.

Our dreams and nightmares have it all wrapped up inside us. How we respond and live each day is in direct proportion to what we hold on to. We hold on to stuff because we either have not found a way to make thing things right or we have not made peace with it. In other words, we have not cleared our side of the street.

Are you interested in what started this ball of regret, cluttered, and dysfunctional life of living hell started? Are you ready for the truth? It has taken me 50-plus years to produce the same answer told to me many years ago.

It started with a lie! The lies that others told me and the lies I believed are some of the same ones I told because I thought they were the truth. I was not so good at making up my lies I had to practice those lies. I had to lie to myself hoping, I could believe my lies so that others would believe them too!

No matter how small a lie is it can take you to some dark places. What woke me up to this was a nightmare I had last week. I was never so scared and grateful to wake up from it. I woke up to the ringing of the phone. Thank heavens, quite literally! I was in Hell.

For some backstories, I have gotten lazy in my writing. This is usually a clear indication I am lazy in self-care. This means even prayer and meditation are suffering. This also means there is a ticking bomb inside me ready to go off if someone I allow lights the fuse.

A friend called and we were going to go through a study together. I leaped out of that bed to do exactly that. In another time and place, I probably either slept through the phone or woke up staring at it and telling it to shut up. I even said to my friend I have never been so grateful for a phone call.

Here we are! I write a letter once telling a lie, I was not going to mail it but still, it had that lie. The letter was found in a trash can by someone else, who then confronted me with the letter. I then quickly lied, by saying I lied about something else so I could escape this situation I found myself in.

I then tried to tell myself none of this was happening. One, being confronted by someone with a letter of lies, two that what had happened in the past, did not happen since I just made the new lie up. How do I keep up with this lying?

There was so much wasted energy wasted time, and then burning bridges on fire at present! It did not stop there!

Love and romance were for me, or so I thought. I just wanted to be a normal cool guy. Heartbroken by number one and soon number two, she was a genie in a bottle who held the bottle of Jack Daniels and a joint. Nothing was going to stop me now.

She lied to me! Why would she lie? She messed up everything. I let her because I lied to her too! I did not see all that was coming. Why would a Genie lie to me? In a smashed-up Mustang convertible, she and I lied but we had been hit by a drunk driver. I escaped with my life with barely a scratch. She escaped too with a broken arm or leg but with her life.

I watched as the officer poured out our Jack Daniels. The true love of my life was being poured out on the ground, and I am underage! Lies full of lies!

The Love Train was a train wreck! Miraculously, we were not charged with public intoxication, and she did not get a DUI! Her web of lies my web of lies it all kept working till she and I both destroyed me in my family’s church, and it was trying to destroy my family.

I can tell this story because it is my story.

Not once had I laid a hand on her, not once had I talked to her like trash or threaten her but a whole church believed her. Yet, I had no idea this was even being said. I was oblivious to it. I let her lie.

That is just the beginning, with some middle parts of the story of lies in my life that I created or believed.

Now, all this has me singing in my head, George Strait’s song, “I Let Her Lie.”

We all believe what we want to believe in the end. Who and what are you going to believe in your own life today?

I do not know about you. I am seeing some solid foundation, finally.

It is time for some more coffee, scrambled eggs, sausage, and toast!

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all, Everybody!

Hearing Someone’s Story I Step Back From The Spiral

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Bismarck, Missouri

Hey, Y’all!

I woke up at 4:15 am today. I am still working on my coffee. I woke up mad. I am disgusted, mad, perplexed, and in general on the edge ready to spiral again. I pause long enough to read in our local gossip area someone reaching out for help.

Now was the time for the judges, jury, and executioners of our fine county to decide if the person was worthy of helping. More than a handful thought so, was the verdict! Humanity is back at work despite the doubters.

For the back story of the person needing help. It was a pregnant woman due in ten days needing a safe place for her and her kids. Food and money for gas to make it to another state which would take a couple of days drive.

The thing about it is, that she was only asking for places to get food. She did not ask anyone for anything. Thankfully, people stepped up and she was grateful. Someone paid for a hotel room, and someone bought food. She also had half the gas money needed to make her trip to her family that was waiting for her and the kids.

This melted my heart.

I am stepping back from the edge again. I do not want to spiral down.

My coffee has started waking me up some. It is in my dad’s coffee mug I have held on to it since my mom gave it to me sometime after my dad’s death. I think even once going through a homeless phase I have held on to it and determined to have coffee no matter what.

It is my piece of peace to feel as though I might be sharing a cup of coffee with him.

I did get to see my dad in a dream this past week. I want to come back to this in a minute. I must catch you up on my readiness to spiral and what has gotten to me first!

I must confess. I have done some screaming, cussing, crying, talking, and sharing. I have not found it necessary to punch a hole in the wall, yet. I sure have envisioned it! I am thinking it through now. A broken hand, another trip to the emergency room, destruction of property that I do not own, and repairs.

What has made me so angry?

I have an infection in my wounds! I am angry because it was preventable, and I did not cause it! It boils down to insurance and money! I had gone nine months infection free! It is a bad infection; it may take having PICC Line once more! Why? Insurance and money.

Thank you, said Insurance Management Company, unsaid!

I feel the swelling and the pain. I started the regular oral antibiotics. I am changing the wraps at home as well as at the wound clinic for now.

Tomorrow I am going to get labs done before entering the wound clinic.

I thought to myself. I can be angry because of this infection. Where is it going to get me in reality? Nowhere!

I switched to this management company because they offered a free monthly food card and extra services. The food and the services are not free. This could cost me dearly! But that is not how they presented it to me.

No, I will not take the blame for this! Believe me, when I say, I have some choice words about this whole situation!

Now back to seeing my dad in a dream. There was a clear river flowing steadily. I stood on the bank right close as if I were to cross. My dad was on the other side of the river, on a bank. He was still wearing his glasses, but much thinner in a blue shirt. No expression on his face, just staring straight through me and the dream ended.

I first thought it is my time to cross, but on second thought, it is not my time. Incidentally, this dream was before I knew about the infection.

It makes sense as it is time to fight this infection!

I think about the song Alison Krauss sings, “Down To The River To Pray.”

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

Staying Miserable Is Not A Choice I Choose

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Leadington August 2022

Hey, Y’all!

Today I just wanted to clear up my statement in my last post. I have done enough rehashing of last week’s trip to the Emergency Room. I am grateful things were not more serious they looked questionable for a while, and even some throughout this week with headaches and lightheadedness.

Sometimes things pop up to derail us from the journey we are on. We get to evaluate ourselves in these times. How will we react emotionally? Where is our gratitude? What are we willing to let go of? Where is our self-care? You also look to see who surrounds you.

I am thankful for the people around me today.

I am thankful I can follow some simple directions.

I am thankful for forgiveness, grace, mercy, and peace.

I am thankful and love seeing the ones who show up time after time, reminding me who my people are.

I am thankful in painful times I can communicate my shortcomings and where I need help, especially with professionals.

I am thankful I can be concerned but not remain miserable.

I am thankful to have some boundaries today and to be able to communicate those to some people, who are not always healthy for me to be around.

I am thankful for the things and people I hold in my heart.

I am thankful for waking up today.

I am thankful I care about myself today.

Those ten things that I am grateful for, make up a good part of who I am.

I do believe in looking to others for direction but mostly the answers are on the inside of us if we will look and search deeply.

In life, just like on the internet. we must scroll past a lot of small stuff We think some small stuff but that is just us blowing it up and out of proportion. We may fail five hundred times at something, but it is just as important to get back up the five hundred and first time.

We do not have to stay stuck or defeated unless we choose to. If we choose to, then it is a choice we have made. I realize today I must take responsibility for all my choices. I am the one who must live with myself.

I need to build my faith up, affirm myself, encourage myself, and accept the fact I have weaknesses that I can overcome. It is also important that I build up, affirm, encourage, and help others when and where I can.

This life is not for the faint of heart. If it were so, our lives would be shorter than they are. Our lives are short in any case.

I want to keep changing and doing the best I can. Sometimes my best is not good enough, but then it changes if I do not give up.

There is no fairness when it comes to self-improvement. We must stay with the bat in hand until we hit a home run!

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God bless Y’all, Everybody!

As Far As It Depends Upon Me

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Banana Bread Loaf August 8th, 2022.

Hey, Y’all!

Today I just got a banana bread loaf put in the oven. I am also going to do an egg salad with bacon and a sandwich with a slice of tomato. I am going to do some chili much later today some for this week and some to freeze.

I finally tried the donut shop coffee pods. I fell in love with a medium roast coffee because I am usually for Darker Roast Columbian-style Coffee or French Dark Roast Coffee.

In other news, I am still rearranging only a bit of my office/living room area. I have a picture to move and supplies to move to the bedroom out of the way. I am happier thinking of only myself in this arranging business.

Sometimes you must make a bigger mess of things to get it right.

When the banana bread loaf comes out of the oven, we should have a slice with butter and a cup of hot coffee. I want to enjoy a piece and bask in the time I have alone. In enough time before my helper comes in to clean and do errands.

I am hoping for most chores and myself to be in order.

So now back to hopefully in a bit of having that banana bread and coffee, I want to think about all the things that are dependent on me. I want to think about what is dependent upon me for more peace in my life. What is dependent upon me to be able to pack into the stream of life?

I think the only way to be emotionally in tune is to tune our spirituality. I manage people and circumstances a lot better when I take the time to be with myself and God. I need that time even if it is only a minute or two before a tough situation or confrontation. If it is a confrontation I know today, if possible, I need to ask for time to table the conversation so that I can get alone and be mindful and seek out help to be able to come back to the table. I realize many times that is an impossible request, and it is an immediate situation. This is where the pause and deep breaths come in when I think to follow that direction.

I am finding when I hear myself saying good things, I say aloud, “Michael, I hope you are listening to yourself.” Because often these things are unexpected from nowhere. It is shocking to hear myself sometimes because of being emotionally and spiritually screwed up for years.

My life has calmed down a whole lot over the years and I have mellowed out some. It has taken over 56 years to get to this point in life. It is a case of sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly, and often slowly.

The banana bread just finished. It is just in time for a break after this entry gets published. Piping hot from the oven cooling down just enough so it separates the sides from the loaf pan. Then a slice with a gob of butter melting on it with my cup of hot coffee.

Let me close by sharing the prayer of St Francis of Assisi:

Prayer of St. Francis of Assisi (Prayer for Peace)

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace:
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy.
O divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand,
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

As far as it depends upon me let there be peace.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

Hard Times Are Here Harder Times Coming

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Park Hills 2022

Hey, Y’all!

It is Sunday, August 7th, 2022. I write about some complaints, self-betterment, recovery, spirituality, religion, cooking, and enjoying life. I do not just stick to those topics, or I will not be sticking to only those topics.

I think all topics should be fair game. We are in a world full of changes politically, religiously, economically, and with real-life hard struggles.

Some have no understanding we are in the middle of a crisis that is coming. Yet for some of us, that time is here. If you are on a fixed income, it is here. Getting groceries anymore is an emotional time for me.

I am having to decide what I can do without each month and how to preserve and stock up at the same time. DO NOT TAKE THIS AS ME ASKING FOR HANDOUTS. I am not!

This is a time to stay busy and I should have started even a year ago or more. Hindsight is 20/20. I know today it is not just me. Soon a lot more will be facing these circumstances. We are learning that our dollar will not stretch. It is not worth much at all,

I am trying to keep my electric bill down to $60 a month. It is particularly challenging at times. I will keep reminding people we need to be prepared and do everything to save.

This entails learning new skills, stocking up on supplies, changing our entertainment, and doing what we can for ourselves so others can take care of themselves. I also believe in helping others and I do that as well. It is about sharing what we have and building community.

Do your homework. Find trusted news sources. Go over your budget and check out your insurance find someone to explain the legal jargon you can trust. Make changes, as necessary.

Find out what you would do if no electricity or water. Those times are coming, it is a fact.

I have shared I watch preppers, cooks, farmers, homesteaders, auto mechanics, and different people. We cannot just keep going with our heads in the sand!

I am grateful for the knowledge I am gleaning. It would be a lot different if only a handful are saying we are heading for a depression! It is not that way.

You do not like leftovers? Well, that may change soon, or you will learn to take a dish and make it a few separate ways. Some of these people are saying some of us will not make it. I have no reason to doubt that.

However even being late in the game and seeing price hikes looming over us if we take heed now, we may have a chance.

Meals in themselves may look different. It may not be three sides an entrée and a dessert. It may be an entrée with vegetables in it. That is if we are lucky to have anything!

Some people may have supplies stocked up and have things under control. Most people I know are living paycheck to paycheck if they even have an income of any type.

However, on a lighter note, I am in the middle of rearranging my living room/office once more. I am finally getting to arrange my space as if nurses will not be coming in from now on.

I am hoping in some ways, this is a new chapter. I hated having medical supplies having to be a focal point in easy care for me. They were taking over spaces I meant for other decorations.

This way my arrangements are about my space for me, rather than having to take visiting nurses into consideration for every move. It will take some tweaking, I am sure.

I am making chili this week some to have and some to freeze.

I hope to get another YouTube video up and again, I hope to be consistent here.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

Happy Thanksgiving In July Yes, That’s Right!

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BoxcarMike on Youtube August 4th,2022

Hey, Y’all!

I am here roasting a turkey in the oven. I have sanitized the kitchen and taking the time to write a little something.

It feels like I am caught up despite oversleeping. I have a couple of deliveries of over-the-counter products coming from my insurance which will help in things normally I would have to budget for or go without.

Life is constantly dealing with these insignificant things which are in the middle of a routine that takes the energy of planning.

You know you must continue in your day by praying and hoping everything turns out well.

The hardest struggle is with self and knowing your attitude must improve to tolerate others. I do want to love other people, but it just seems as much as I can feel unlovable, so do other people.

I know others might even just consider me a grumpy middle-aged man.

In many ways, I still feel like the sixteen-year-old boy trying to figure out the ways of this world and wondering when I got older characteristics, that to me should not be that noticeable to other people and yet, they are noticeable to others anyway.

I am finishing this blog entry from the other day I started on Thursday, July 21st, 2022. It is now Monday, July 25th, 2022.

I was not caught up on my day Thursday, and I was near a melt-down mode trying to finish the turkey and stuffing. The turkey turned out great! The stuffing was a Keto-Gluten-Free recipe, and it turned out great!

I had two different friends over, one on Thursday, who provided the turkey to cook and all the ingredients I needed for the recipes. I had another friend who enjoyed a second supper on Friday, who provided our drinks. I had a wonderful time with both people. My weekend was restful and just unwinding from the week. I wanted everything to go perfect. While everything tasted good the presentation of the turkey-looking appetizing was a major failure.

However, the most important part to me was the safety of the turkey cooked all the way. Also, so no one is sick due to carelessness or unsafe practices in cooking.

On a personal note, each person in their way added to my memory for my dad, on what would have been his birthday.

As for today Monday, it is another day of being ready to keep on the move with a shower, a hot cup of coffee, and my morning phone call.

I look forward to each morning’s phone call with a trusted friend.

I am starting to run behind schedule. I will finish this entry after lunch.

It turns out, that my Thanksgiving lasted only a short term. I became bewildered over insurance issues and medical issues. It has taken about two weeks for me to climb back up from the depression I fell into.

I feel like the ground below may not crumble after all. As of this past Monday, I confronted a problem head-on to get the insurance and medical issues straightened out hopefully in effect for the beginning of September.

I am sorry this took so long to finally get this blog entry posted. Today I did upload a video of my rambling out a message to viewers. Please look at it here https://youtu.be/ioGWCqoUQwI and as always, thank you.

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

The Truths Of Your Shortomings To Get Past Them

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Leadington, Missouri July 19th, 2022

Hey, Y’all!

I am here again today using my life experience along my journey in what it takes to get things done. In my experience, I must call out the truth of my shortcomings to myself, God, and a trusted person.

If I can call out the truth, then it can help me get past whatever it is and do what I need to do for that day. Each day is a new challenge and sometimes repetitiveness happens. Regardless, I must get things done. I cannot have a bunch of half-done things and rest well. I am not sure anyone rests when things are half-done

Like it or not there is a routine in my mind, and I try to put it on paper daily. I check off each item as I complete it. I also have a digital and I have my physical calendar, to look at and mark off each day and the main events with a big X.

Every day feels like a time management process. If I do not have things written or printed out, I end up spinning my wheels, wasting time when I could get it done, and feeling as though I can rest, at the end of the day.

I am picking back up here now, Wednesday Morning. Yesterday was a day unto itself. I had an eye doctor appointment, so I could get my eyes evaluated for new glasses. I am far-sighted and thankfully only a little worse.

Getting back to the subject of calling myself out on my shortcomings. It is important so that I can be okay. This morning I had a conversation with someone about the power of letter writing as well. I thought to myself as we hung up, I need to write a letter to myself and figure out where I am going.

I cannot stay, and not move. I must keep growing and improving on where I want to go and who I want to be.

It is a continuous journey once we decide to let go of the stuff that holds us back from self-betterment and or growing into the person we want. I know I am created for more than I am now.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

Coffee Time On A Way Too Early Saturday

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Heading Out To Bismarck Lake 2018

Hey, Y’all!

I am still waking up even if I have been up since 5:30 am.

Norman Greenbaum, Red Bone, The Eagles, and me. I love my music.

I have been thinking about changes and what it all means since last evening. You can feel resistance from those around you when you are in the middle of making changes or doing what you need to for self-care.

You must keep moving and keep changing regardless. Someone wise says you wish those people well, pray, and hope the best for them. God love them.

What I do love is the ones from your tribe show up. They remind you that you are on the right path. My friend showed up with a turkey we are going to thaw that baby out and cook it this next week. I am looking forward to that because I am going to bake the turkey with a keto stuffing recipe.

I went searching for a turkey recipe a couple of months ago and did come across it. I do want to be healthier. I am not always willing to put in the work for it, but somehow there is always a way out.

I do not have to entertain anyone else’s insanity today. My excuses for my choices are more than enough to deal with on most days. I must answer for me and me alone.

How we answer for ourselves comes in all forms. There are a lot of days my door is open too much. Believe me, Friday comes, and I want that door closed. I want to keep out as much nonsense as possible.

It looks like a lot of loneliness but not so much anymore. It is freedom. I have learned that if you stop stuff at your door then you only contend with what is inside of you. That is more than enough for me to contend with most days.

Have I mentioned the month is slipping by? This means the year is slipping by as well. I am not even close to all that I had hoped to accomplish this summer. Maybe surviving and stopping the insanity in part is what I was meant to accomplish. There is always more to do. There is always more revealed.

I am stronger emotionally, spiritually, and physically. A week ago, I thought it was about explaining that to others. This week I realize it is more about explaining that to myself. The fact is I still need others.

I cannot do this alone, but there are more things I can do without supervision.

I of course need guidance overall. To me, it is a mixture of many different things. Life is not at all the black and white solid force of nature. Life has a lot of grey areas. There are absolutes and I am still finding my way through both of those.

I am not the person to tell you, you are wrong. Your way may work for you. That does not mean your way works for me, nor my way works for you.

Saturday and Sunday both slipped by, so I am posting now on Monday.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

3 Statements I Am Sorry I Am Wrong I Apologize

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Park Hills, Missouri 2022.

Hey, Y’all!

I am back at behaviors and responses today! It is a forever battle for me.

I keep working on everything. I juggle all the things set before me my schedule my behavior as an afterthought of acting without thinking. After I say words in not a nice tone, I have that thought of wow! That was harsh!

The people in my corner are the best! Given this world and how selfish people are all wrapped up in themselves not caring where others are or doing anything to put back and replenish what they have taken. I would like to think I am not one of those selfish people.

I have the mindset of realizing I need to ease up and not be ready to chew off the heads of the very people, helping me get through in this life. It makes me think I do not have the right to ask them for forgiveness because it has happened all too often.

To me, and I could be wrong for thinking this, the most valued statements are I am sorry, I am wrong, and I apologize.

Life is hard enough without lashing out among those around us. It does not matter if you are stressed out. What matters is how I treat others and knowing I would want to be treated by others, with more kindness and grace. Especially when people are seeing a problem you do not see.

I have mellowed through the years, but this does not mean I have arrived at any goal. I have more to work on in managing my emotions and in responding to others.

It is my goal to keep working and improving my social interactions with people. It is a priority for me to let others know they have value. Not to get stuff from people, but to grow together and interact. To have the understanding we are imperfect people, in an imperfect world, living in peace and harmony.

There are impressive ideas about handling each other with care. Great posters with sayings and beautiful artwork with rules to live by. Yet if we act and live those things out. That is when they are most beautiful. When the words come to life, that is when it is beautiful, true, and pure.

We relate a lot of things to having a garden, a gas tank, and a cup. A garden takes time to plant and harvest. In between is watering and weeding. A gas tank refers to the energy we spend on what is important to us. The cup refers to in many ways the blessings we receive or the happiness and joy we have inside of ourselves.

Thinking upon all these references to behaviors and treatment people get in response from us, there is always better and more to give to these people.

I do desire to give the people in my corner the best. We will never give people what they deserve, but we can strive toward it.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!

The Adult Has To Play Well With Others

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My Peace Lily Hoping To Get Another

Hey, Y’all!

Sometimes I know exactly what I am going to say in my post before I get it out. I just never know the ending or what it will look like at the end. I am just as surprised as you most of the time. It is like, who knew?

Did any of you all your mama say, “I am surprised at you?”

Mine did, I would respond with, I know me too! Not a good thing to say back. I am just saying.

In the last few posts, they have all been random. This one is no different.

Playing well with others was never a true statement for me. I loved to do my own thing. I still do in fact.

I find out doing my own thing after Friday nights and well even though the week, once I turn my phone off for the night, I have a lot more peace.

I did not even think this weekend through it just happened naturally. I took an extra day of rest. I felt guilty for a second. I then realized I must extend my hours for the next few months because I have a nurse, Nurse B. (Her name starts with B for real), and she is not a morning person.

You roll with punches, I guess. I will be done with my day at 6:30 pm. Fridays I will be finished with the day by 4:00 pm. Of course, that does not apply to my friends. If we have made plans, all the better.

I needed the extra rest today. I am supposed to be at an event online at this very moment and have my phone open. My plans changed. These things happen.

I know that the event is downloadable and will get to it at my earliest convenience. There was also a second event I had to say no to at the same time. I am hoping it will be downloadable or at least a stream online as well later. If not, oh well.

My neighbor friends have been missing me and at some point, I do need to be available for them as well. I do love them and care about them.

It is not just for the nurse I had to extend my hours it is also because I have had to schedule transportation for an eye doctor’s appointment next week. They could call anytime this week to confirm the appointment and confirm the time they are picking me up for the appointment.

I promised one neighbor a cake and I will make that tonight and have that ready for her in the morning.

I have yet to make supper, but I did get extra rest. It is just going to be a light supper, I think.

Here is a clue for someone out there asking, who is going to help me?

No one is coming. I have made a promise to love, care, protect, feed, and do what I must to keep myself at peace and in harmony with my surroundings. No one will do that for me.

The only thing coming is the wolves. I must keep them away from my door at all costs.

As a friend says, stay busy. Never forget where you came from.

Thanks for reading!

This has been another blog post entry by Boxcar Mike, over and out!

God Bless Y’all Everybody!