Good Morning Everyone,
I am a day behind and it’s okay. I will hopefully get caught up with a second posting this afternoon.
This morning I am sitting here drinking my coffee and listening to hymns by Selah and thinking about my morning gathering around the tables. How grateful and wonderfully awesome is the chance for change.
Everyday is the chance to change my story. I am thinking about the strength and hope others have given me, as well as them sharing their experience.
I know I am not sharing much about the book right now. Maybe my experience is just what’s important to share right now.
I have been considering the past few months, how far away I am from the God of my understanding and as I don’t understand Him. Please don’t try to correct me on this because, the God of my understanding tells me there is a mystery I don’t understand.
After all a power greater than me and an all-knowing presence …There has to be more than I understand or can ever comprehend. It’s the God connection that changes my story.
You can get as angry as you want, I am finally surrendering to the fact I can’t ever know all there is to this. I am not shoving it down your throat, this is my experience.
I am not sure I can ever go back to the child understanding of God. Each hymn takes me back to childhood part of me and it also raises inside of me, a belief stronger than I have had in maybe, years.
What? Am I supposed to leave this out of my experience, because it might make others uncomfortable? It’s part of my journey! Whether you realize it or not, all of you are part of my journey and so is every experience.
It’s all still piece-meal for me, accepting truths a little bit at a time.
What I do know is the simple part. Striving to wake up each morning and asking God to direct my thinking that I would not be sucked into self-pity or false pride. Asking for God for protection and care to keep me away from a drink.
I need help doing the next right thing, as well as what I can do for someone else.
Throughout the day asking God to help me pause in difficult times or when I am tempted to be angry saying the prayer to save me from being angry. Yes, there’s a lot I need saved from and it always seems to be, being broken down enough to ask for help.
I cannot do it on my own. By the same token though, no one can do the steps or the foot work for me.
It also means pausing before I speak or do anything. The three questions always to consider is it kind, is it necessary, and is it helpful.
At night remembering to go over my day would be key as well. Making sure I have corrected any wrong along the way. I am a slow learner at this. Then finally saying a prayer of thanks for one more day. The bottom line, if I do my part God can’t help but do His part.
We are now back at the beginning, where we started with the first 100 people. They each woke up each day, having the chance to change their story. Just for today I can do this with God and everyone else.
Thank you for reading! This here’s Boxcar Mike over and out!
God Bless Y’all!