True ambition is the deep desire to live usefully and humbly under the grace of God.” (Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions AA Pages 124-125)
This afternoon I finally finished the third column of my fourth step inventory. I was so grateful to get the push I needed.
I was reminded as I was doing my step work of the wonderful bonfire with friends last night and how awesome it was that we are mix of people under normal circumstances probably wouldn’t have mixed.
So, we have a singleness of purpose somehow guided by the God of our understanding. Tonight, as I did my work and even writing now, I have a candle lit. Believe me it is nothing compared to the awesome bonfire.
I really want to let go of everything and be free of the prison in my mind. All of us that gather together its representation of exactly those who are in the process at least, of being freed from what our minds have created within ourselves.
I found out today in my journey, to let myself stay untreated in the steps means I could go way off the beam. I can’t afford to pay that price today. I am not willing to go to prison because of an unwillingness to work the steps.
I am ready to press through. Today for these 24 hours, I will do whatever is necessary. The three legacies which are unity, service, and recovery: These are what remind me about to thine own self be true.
Gathering together and giving it away, to keep it. I need people and they need me. I can’t stay a hermit and be okay. I have to be willing to go outside my comfort zone and be real. Tell people where I am so I can find out if Iam headed for trouble.
I cannot afford to be alone in my own head anymore. It just doesn’t work. It’s suicide if I do.
I didn’t know crazy can fake itself and look calm like today. It’s enough to scare you into doing whatever you have to do, to keep crazy away.
Prayers alone are not enough it takes work and action. You must open your mouth no one is a mind reader.
There is one who has all power. That one is God may you find him now. We read this at every meeting and it’s so true. Alone, I have no power but together we can.
Half measures availed us nothing, let’s press on!
- I am grateful for sponsorship.
- I am grateful for the bonfires, candles, gathering and a loving God as he may express himself.
- I am grateful for the singleness of purpose.
- I am grateful for the life saver.
- I am grateful for choices today.
- I am grateful for get out of jail free card, that’s in the steps if we work them.
- I am grateful we can work at demolishing the prison we built.
- I am grateful to be loved regardless where I am.
- I am grateful for homecoming.
- I am grateful for the strength to get through today when I was very tempted to nap.
Thank you reading!
This has been another blog post entry by BoxcarMike over and out!
God Bless Y’all Everybody!